qiqi

2006-06-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

i created a new blog which will take effect on 1st of july.. hahas..cus i dont want lose my june's posts..((: well... so..yups..((; try to relink me whn i change alright? i wil put e new link here..(:
oh anw..

A boy and a
girl, the
best of friends.
From elementary to high school
from beginning to end.
Through all those years
their friendship grew.
They both felt the same, but
neither knew.
Each waking moment since the day
they met. They both loved each other sunrise to
sunset.
He was all she had in her terrible life. He
was the one who kept her from her knife.
She
was his angel, she made him smile.
Though life
threw him curves, she made it all worth while.
Then one day things went terribly wrong.
The next
few weeks were like a very sad song.
He made
her jealous on purpose he tried.
When the girl
asked, "Do you love her?" on purpose he lied.
He
played with jealousy like it was a game.
Little did
he know Things would never be the same.
His
plan was working but he had no clue.
How wrong
things would go, the damage he would do.
One
night she broke down, feeling very alone. Just
her
and the blade, no one else home.
She dialed his
number, he answered, "Hello"
She told him she
loved him and hung up the phone.
He raced to her
house just a minute too late.
Found her lying in
blood, her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a
note, in it her confession.
Her love for this boy, her
only obsession.
As he read the note, he knelt
down and cried.
Grabbed her knife, that night they
both died. She was found in his arms, both of
them dead.
Under her note his handwriting said: "I
loved her so, she never knew.
All this time I loved
her too."

that wassomething tragic.something swt.
enjoy it.

uh.. im gonna get e converse shoe me n huifen's been eyeing.((:
GSS ..only 39 bucks. until 23rd of july. hahahas!.
i love GSS. ((: cus i love shopping.!.
DARLING HUIFEN.... i wan my bugis shopping trip n my eyebrow trimming session n my make up session n (er ..manicure pedicure session?) LOLS.

a gd news to start a night... MY DARLING NICOLE's GOING TO back in sg(on sun 6am..) hahhahas
((: HEHS.
<3>
faster go hm n talk.i miss u so!.((:

these days i was hooked to MY NAME IS KIM SAM SOON!.
((: hyun bin's damn hot.
OOH. im gonna borrow e dvd frm XUETING DEAREST!!
hahahas. we wil share hyun bin alright? <3

well... it wasnt a really good week..
i had one of my worst day on mon.
well..it's over..n i dont feel like spoilin my day on elaborating that day.((:

if he pulls u near, whisper into ur ears e things u wanna hear,made u go OOH, gave u a peck on e forehead..n say e softest goodbye..
if ur' sad.. it might probably cus u wont c each other again.
if ur' happy... it might probably ur love just started.
((: 1 scenario.2 complete different feeling.

im nt sure why i said that.. the tot just came to my mind..
like i can picture it well.. cheers to my good imagination. hahas.

enqi is quite sickish and bullshitish nwadays.
i tink i need a good day rest frm e world cup.
=( owen..
=(
sighs..

alright.. R-E-S-T. will update again probably on july 1st.((:

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2006-06-16T18:47:00.000+08:00

hahaahas. SPASTIC lookin me.lols.

Huifen ask me drink this ting we made....

so naturally..i pick it up n drank it.. n huifen pointin with her pen.

Water coming out from e wall..lols

Huifen tryin to show kf some prove of what he said but dint do..LOLS..

Crystallisation ~ lols

ok..that was some stuffs we did in class...lols...

now now..i swear i look funny..

she looks violated..but i can c alil smile down dere. HAHAS. an shuang right nic?

narcissistic.(((:

dont eat 1st..POSE!

That was wad we did in pizza hut..lols..

me n wendy.co bbq.((:

hahahas.((:

2 pictures of co bbq.((:

while waitin for e ice cream to come..
HF DRANK FIN HER WATER(right.)!

but whn e ice cream came.....

xuehui was busy lookin at tom n jerry~

that was the day at maestro..eatin icecream..

n ....dan... today... FLU caught me.. used 2 boxes of tissues within a day n.... a rubbish bin filled with tissueesssss. LOLS

ahh..pls.. flu bug..
GO AWAY!

2006-06-16T12:19:00.000+08:00

apparently enqi's sick..
n vy sick indeed.
=( e flu just wont go ehs?
=(
maybe it's e fever or e flu tt's makin me emo too.
so nw im physically sick n mentally sick as well.
but at least..not tt bad today la..((: fever's gone.
C..i dont nd a doctor k?! ((:
but well... thanks for e care n concern ppl ((:
nicole..im sorry but i cant join u on ur shoppin trip tml.
maybe nxt week? im rili terribly sick ..=(
latr i go out..run outta tissues ...i wil be shoppin for tissues!....
hahas..

oh ya.. im feelin soapy saddy..wadeva u can come up with.
somehow i dont feel good ..... ='( apparently..i started feelin bad ever since i kno he gt a gf ehs? but nw..it's nt tt.... cus i knew he's just a crush.. someone.like an illusion..tt i yearn for...... mmm..((: well.. just say.im glad we are frns.. he's a nice frn to have tho..((;
lols..
uh..so y m i feelin bad?
i guess nicole's was right. dere's something i cant let go..=(
someone i cant forget ..
or perhaps is just e non stop of listenin to soapy songs.
((;

I'll remember you
it has been so long since we had talked,
i hope that things are still the same.
hoping that they will never change.
cos what we had can never be replace.
dont let our memories fade away.
keep it in your heart for always.
made me believe, i can do almost anything.
stood right by me, from the tears to everything.
i'll remember you, and baby that's forever true.
you're the one that i'll always miss.
never thought it would feel like this.
i'll remember you, no matter what you're going thru.
in my heart you'll always be forever baby,i'll remember you.
i'll promise you, i wont forget, the times we shared, the tears we cried.
you'll always be the sun in my sky.
it may be faint but brings us back to meet again someday.
even tho we go seperate ways, made me believe, i can do almost anything.
stood right by me, from the tears to everything.
i'll remember you, and baby that's forever true.
you're the one that i'll always miss.
never thought it would feel like this.
i'll remember you, no matter what you're going thru.
in my heart you'll always be forever baby,i'll remember you.
if the day should come, you need some one, you know that i'llfollow,i'll be there. dont ever let there be a doubt in your mind, cos i'll remember you.
i'll remember you, and baby that's forever true.
you're the one that i'll always miss.
never thought it would feel like this.
i'll remember you, no matter what you're going thru.
in my heart you'll always be forever baby, i'll remember you.
forever baby, i'll remember you.
*lyrics gotten frm Nicole's blog

I just can't understand the ways
of guys and their mistakes.
you give them all your heart,
and then they rip it all away..
You told me how much you loved me,
and how our love was meant to be
and I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free.
You should've just told me the truth
that i wasn't the girl for you.
still i didn't have a clue,
so my heart depended on you.
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I'm a girl
Been told a guy will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored.
I know thats no life
I gave my all, yet still I just cry.
Never again will i be fooled.
To give my all when nothing's true.
I won't be played again.
But I will fall in love again.

I loved you so,
Now you leave me in the cold.
How could this be
I thought you'd only love me.
Into the night
I will pray that you're alright.
You hurt me so,
I just can't let you go.
You took advantage of my willingness
to do anything for love.
Now i'm the only one in pain.
Will you please take it all away.

Never thought being born a girl
How can i love you and be burned.
Now i build a wall
to never get torn again
*lyrics gotten frm ryan's blog

1st is nosecrets-i'll remember you.
2nd is because im a girl frm jini(or smthn)
((;
both equally nice songs.

u got no idea what im feelin right now.
cus i dont even kno it myself.
ahhhh.
stupid flu..
turnin me retarded.LOLS... nicole like wad i say dont she? lols. ya.im turnin qitard soon..=(

lols..
oh..good news..
((; zexing downloaded h&mc 2nd album finish.((:
good.. nw i just hafta go find e 1st one.
good... AHH..stupid shit. im so addicted to h&mc bcus of zexing la.
make me find make me listen..nw im hooked.
hahas. but their songs are nice.((:
like a comfort to e disband of d.a.i.((:
yea yea yea..

no more soapy songs.
time for Highandmighty colour!...
((:

-i tink its u who i miss. i tink it's u i yearn for.. my frn.my illusion.a lil of my evyting.
well.but it's not u im sad for. no.. u make me happy.ur' a comfort to e reason y im sad.
i guess e reason is because i haven let go..let go of a short yet swt yet unreal love..
but dan.... it dont seems to be that reason to..i shld've let go sometime ago..
ah..so wad is it tt im feeling? wad kindda reason?
wad?

2006-06-11T00:42:00.000+08:00

well....
life has its ups n downs.
bullshit. my life keep lowering itself.. to e deepest depth ..
='(

my day my mood depends on the little things tt ppl does.
how pathetic.
='( if only my mood depends on MYSELF.
i think i will be a happy girl.

love is just a pile of shit can?
='( heartbreaks are inevitable.
well.. at least to me...
those who are in bliss n happiness .. u wont be able to relate to this.

UMM..
so .. when did i last stop?
ooh. 060606.
uh well.
070606- went out with nic wendy n zexing.. tho met up with some other ppl in e latr part of e day. ya.
watched xmen 3.
hey..its supposed to be an action movie right?
how come tears flow down like tap water?!
enqi cant stand noble love.
i dont like e idea of true love. well. seems to me.. that's kindda unreal.
so enqi will tear evy single time she sees/watch those soapy scenes.

080606- went out with like 4 bucks? hahahs. im really broke.
watched the omen. well watched 1/2 e omen.
dont ask me hw i watch it wif 4 bucks in my pocket. obviously some nice person treated me.
ehs lien.?
n so im like a lil guilty i hafta leave e cinema 1/2 way thru e freakin scary shw.
=( mummy called n called. a series of killing calls.
couldnt stand her series of calls n smses.i went home .
to find out no1's at home
she wanted me to check if e door's lock.
WTH.
chatted with nicole on e fone till 4am 090606.

090606. my beloved nicole's bdae.
well well...xD

100606- watched the omen with my bro.
hahahahas. waste money i kno. but dan.. oso nt i pay. ;)
well. wad can i say. e ending kindda creep me off till now.
nono. damien's a cute boy.. yup.. cant believe he's satan's son.
n well. i kno y robert can bear to kil him at e last part(he can do it b4 bein shot. dere's plenty of time. but he hesitated. kindda sucks. well. good luck mr president(who i tink wil adpot him) .
wellwell.

worldcup- mmm mm .
germany vs coasta rica. expected results. 4-2.
mm.
england vs paraguay.
shit. tho england won 1-0 .. but.. well. is an own goal frm paraguay .. indirectly help out by beckham's missed freekick.
owen's injured in well..quite e last part of e match..
mm. =( owennnnn!~.
hahahas.

x) well well..

3 wks i dint c him.n still counting. nxt wk dere's no lesson n so .. it wil b a mth .
bt he called me to ask me for directions to simei. EHS. ((: i kno it's a lil asinine of me to be happy becus of dis. but look at it dis way.. it was e 1st time i hear him over e fone.((: if u were in my shoes. u'll be on cloud nine too.
xD

uhh.
i hope e wounds heal faster.
i dont want to waste my time on useless stuffs.(:

2006-06-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

alright..i will start with..

Virgo

Turn ons

Virgo`s are very methodical and have great sense of duty but are blind to their own faults so if you have a Virgo partner emphasize more on their qualities (as it is they are not going to accept). Take keen interest in what they are doing and you will realize that they will go out of their way to help you. Do rely and appreciate their mental powers than physical powers. They can turn even an unsuccessful venture into a success.

Turn offs

Do not push a Virgo into limelight or on the center stage unless of course they do so on there own. They are shy and reserved by nature and do not like to be cynosure of all eyes. Virgo`s have a secrets that virtuous as they are would not like to come out in open so even if you have the key to their secret skeleton closet hide it do not admit even that you know anything about it. Virgo, the virgins, does not want to tarnish their public image.

hahas.. mm.. im a virgo.... well..im not ALWAYS superstitious. but e above thing i took from a email is quite true..

someone said nt only do i get upset n happy easily.. im easily jealoused n provoked too.

UH.. alright.. i shall admit.. i gets easily jealoused n provoked.

jealous.- when i c someone with looks n brains n figure.. holdin on to a guy with brains n looks n ..er..hot bod? ya.. that's whn i wil get super agitated n try to walk another path.

provoked- hahahahas. try insulting me.or er try well..make fun of me... n i will scream like mad..evn in orchard road. ((: ya. im that easily provoked.

UH.. hahahas. well. my evidences kindda.. not enough ehs? ((: that shld be smthn good if u think bout it..((: who will want to be labeled as a person who gets jealous or provoked easily.. uh..definitely not me ...

ehs.

ok.. some random stuffs.
someone(yea..someone again.) hahahahs.. asked me.. whats e sudden obsession over jade(superband..not that green green thing)? ERMS.. 1st..it's nt rili sudden la.. i oways go gaga over terrence e lead singer. n xiao long(lawrence).e guitarist. so..ya.. ((: just that e obsession over xiaolong grewww...xD hahahas. n ya. NOT SUDDEN.

dan another stupid dumbfuck qns came.. what bout lucify.. -.-
HAIS.. entertainin qns.. HAIS... alright.. lucify.. ((: i tot i said it before.. it started quite long ago.... whn dere isnt lucify.. confused? read on.. ((: dere was once this band call GeneXis..((: rmbr? alright.if u cant rmbr.. go look for my 2004 dont kno whn post.. gt fotos explanation n stuffs. at that time. i was mesmerized by e performance of geneXis (n ya.. rmbr lze.fier?) alright..((: i guess.. that was e time. whn i started my gaga-ing over shinya n misaki n kel.

ok..oh.. n im nt into paul twohill. erms. well.. nt so la.. i just rmbred him s e "newspapered" guy.. hahahas.. (((: well..nic will kno what im sayin la .. xD is some old memories on chma (catholic high music awards) .. yup... no. im nt rili into him. mmm. im spendin all my attn to lucify(n xiaolong/jade) LOLS!.

ahhhh.. sometime i felt so random in my blog.lols.. frm horoscope to answering some qns.... bt well..

-Love is yet another illusion........no matter how much i want to c u... somehow.. somethings' stucked. i cant.. ur gf.my low esteem.... all e factors added up to one conclusion.. ur' just an illusion i yearn for now. SIGHS.

2006-06-06T03:23:00.000+08:00

Eyes: Windows to your soul

They said the eyes are the windows to your soul.
Where they know the real you.
Where they see the real you.
But is it all true?
Redness and tears
Surround the eyes.
Curtains of unreleaved,
Secrets that are to be kept.
Her eyes looked so lifeless
And wanting to give up.
Trying to hide all her pain and grieve
.Masking it all with a invisble curtain.
In her eyes; look closely.
Can you see the cry of comfort?

Can you see a tiny spark of hope and happiness?
Waiting to be lit and burn.Redness surrounded her eyes.
Tears filled her eyes.Pain releaved openly.
Hatred and envy waiting to be spilled.
Who could come and comfort this pair of eyes...
To let her eyes see the beauty of the world
To let her know
the truth of happiness
Let her know,
for she is just a lost soul...

THIS is for my darling nicole who seemed so down so sad.
((:

just want to let her kno ... i love her so.
relax girl.
evyting will be good..
trust me.
n trust that love will come soon for u.

OH YEA..
xrf's out.
u cant imagine hw happy i m..
xD i kno dis sounds childish.
((:but u dont kno hw happy im ok?!

uh...
today's eng lesson was a lil funny..
we hafta think bout those adjectives bout a national day parade.
LOLS.
how m i suppose to think bout those bombastic words bout a borin parade?HEHS.
so e whole class brainstorm n came up with words...hahaaas.
came out with words like pretty? handsome? gorgeous?metallic?salty(taste of sweat?)melodious?uh.. hahahahahahs.
dan we will have to write a descriptive compo on it.
omg.
nw my brain juice gg to finish le la.
((:

tml i wil start on e stupid compo.
i dont want to procrastinate till sunday ...
ahahas. well.. if it's so... i think i will nt do.
xD

i dont understand guys. ok.. dis is gg to sound random.
i dont understand guys at all.. they lied but they dont kno e art of lying.
they say they dont like that girl A anymore. (which in fact..they just want to make tt girl A stop thinkin bout them. they are selfish creatures .they tot dis is meant to be good for that girl. to make her stop all her sorrows.but in fact lil do dey kno.. dey are really killin GIRL A.)
n s i said..they dont kno hw to lie. they look for someone .. inferior compared to girl a.
lets name e girl b.
((:
girl b.. sorry.. it's rili harsh.but i hafta say.. u look rili dumb****.
c.. if u want to lie to girl a.
pls... wash ur brain. n get someone heavenly compared to girl a..ahhh.like tt..no 1 will suspect u.
n dan... POINT TO UR LIE ..n cry.....

PLS..think before u lie. unless u want to make a girl cry.
OK.. im changin my bg music..to this song by jade(whn dey are in revival round). this song named.: nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei.
somehow ...
dedicated to e guy i mentioned above. n to all e guys who made girls cried.
oh wells.
guys can make a girl cry easily. but think about ... they can make a girl smile easily too. if dey want.

ahh.
i will end it off..with..
mmmm. a gd phrase.
something lil from someone can make ur day.
so instead of makin someone cry.
make his/her day.

omg.
m i really lackin of what to blog?
i sound so random. sooo sooo random.
hahahas.
but what do u expect. it's 3.32am right.
ya.

xD

so to all.GOOD NIGHTS. or well.. wld u prefer ...GD MORN?

-ahhhh.many phrases frm devil beside me can be random stuffs that's discussed over e phone.
oh..i forgot.. this lil para. is dedicated to him..
ok.
hais. i wish u dint have gf.
u nvr kno hw addicted to dis infatuation im in.
oh. i dont kno to swim.tho i kno hw to float.. dis is too deep.
tt's y im drownin.
nw u can laugh. u say u will laugh whn i drown.

-uh..another for nicole.
nahh.i cant kill. i love u too much to kill u.
if i kill u.. i think i will suicide. ((:
killin u wont end ur sorrows.
cus.. will be happy whn im guilty?
nah.. ur ya.. aint true.
HEE HEE HEE.

aHHH..i wonder wad life install next for me.
((: ahhhhhh.

y do ppl cry.

omg..today's post rili vy seriously. randomed.
i said im gg to end.
but i haven end yet..

ahh...
e world's turnin.
HEHS.

UH HUH.
TOOT~

2006-06-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

apparently..
i have been tagged by my daphne dear.

7 random facts bout me:
1. sigh.short and ugly.hahahas
2. brainless most of e time.
3. MOODSWING lotsa e time.((:
4. unglam.
5. over vulgar.
6. hahahahas. get upset easily n get happy way too easy too.
7. i like guys who aint too nice.hahahaas.(n i got a fetish over guys who wear long sleeves.apparently.)

7 things that scares me:
1. wakin up.
2. ='( whn i felt drifted frm my frn.(hahas.tho sometimes its just my over-sensitive thinking.)
3. GHOST? hahahas
4. =( HIM. n love that's gone n love that i wil nvr get.
5. HOPE... ya. dont evr give me hope on anything..rili.
6. hahahas. myself? sometimes i dont evn kno myself.
7. ((:daphne's scared of thunder. im scared of LIGHTNING.(n i cant slp whn dere's lightning.)

7 random songs at the moment:
1. San Ge Zi- ruan jing tian and qiao qiao
2. some lullaby song played over at 933 evyday weekdays 2am.hahahs.
3. because i love you -Z chen
4. It ends tonight- the all american rejects
5. redemption- gackt
6. Zi lian kuang - Chen yi
7. Fukai Mori- do as infinity

7 things I like the most:
1. mama papa kor kor.((:
2. My darling friends - ppl like Nicole Sze . Toh Huifen . Daphne Tan.Annie Neo. Tan Zexing. Jonathan Leok.Ooi Jun Liang +++++ LOVES!.
3. COKE
4. my mp3.
5. my hp.!
6. CHOCOLATES(i like liquor ones darkbitter ones n white ones.hehs.).
7. Laughters.(((:

7 things i say the most:
1. hahahas / lols
2.uh..fuck. (lols)
3. uh..right..=.=
4. n i love you lots
5.HURS HURS..
6. orhs....
7. wu liaos..=.=

7 people i want to do this:
1. Nicole
2. Annie
3. Ericia
4. Jia Min
5. Xue Hui
6.Youliang
7. Gabrielle

hahahas.=.=

i was rili paranoid (c my last post)
actually..i m oways paranoid la.
((:
anw.. i saw nicole's blog n i teared.
her words .. her assurance we'll be besties-forever. her comfort. her.. post.
what she says have truly touched me. so swt she is.((:
n yes my dear nicole .i do hope evything will b fine for u.
ya.((: ur not only mentally tired. i can c ur physically tired too.
for this . i do hope u will give urself a break frm evything.(((:
N I CANT WAIT TO C U!. ahahahahs.

tue.. went out with aunt.((: shop shop shop.
manage to get nicole's present n wendy's present.
hahahas.(((: n manage to get a new earphone.mine was on e verge of dying.
n ...ya..(((:

uh yea. dan..
went out with huifen n xuehui on wed.
hahahas.=.= ate ice cream at cine. YUMS.
that costs us arnd 5 per person. alright la. 5 scoops lehs.!
hahahahs. at maestro.((:
n i think i saw xiao long on e way to orchard! HAHAS!.
((((((: so uber cute.
he smiled. (bcus i was being so silly shouting away.oh damn.) hahahas

thurs.
sighs. he dint come today either.
sad sad.
he was watchin idol.
hahahas. i kno he got a gf. but i cant stop crushin on him la.
=( so uber sad.
=( oh wells.
phy on thurs was gd. better dan tt mao mao teach.
(((: hahahas

oh.. speakin of idol earlier.
paul was in.
hahahas.. nicole called me on wed tell me paul went sg idol. i was like huh? wad paul?
hahahs. dan she say chma e ..blah blah blah ...... dan i recalled n orhsssss.
HAHAHAHAHAS.
that newspapered guy in e photoshoot.
HAHAHAHAS.
alright.he's in.
((:

n today..dere's co bbq.
((: i cant wait to c my dear frns. n s well pass wendy her present.
hahahahs.
((:
yea yea yea.

uh .wait. did i mention ryan's msn got hacked ytd by some fankid who likes joshua ang that much?! -.- WU LIAOS.
claimin to teach ryan a lesson for being "proud" . wads her definition of proud?
-.-WU LIAOS LEHS!.
hahahahas. tt fankid sadly..wont get away.. ryan's gg to report to e police. apparently..dere's alot of impt information which that girl mite get hold of..
oh...anw
*icecold reloaded dont freeze ppl's acc. craps.=(*

msn's havin failure. youtube a lil failure.
UH so..im so bored.i hafta blog
but dan i hafta go prepare wendy's bdae card. haven write anything.
LOLS.

how many more days to my death?
sighs.
!

anw.
((: wil update whn i feel e need to.. ((:
so till den.

cya.

2006-05-29T15:38:00.000+08:00

u gain something. u lose something.
is that so?.
what if i lose evyting. i gain nothing?.
perhaps. that's life i guess.
dint update e past week cus i think im lackin words.or rather. lacking the ability to blog.

=) im only 1/dont-kno-hw-many-ppl in this world blogging.
ya.

sometimes..
i really envy all those who gt e looks,e figure,e brains,e evyting.
bt dan i think im just jealous of that girl who got my evyting.

dan..
i fear that my closest frns are driftin slowly apart frm me.
the ppl who makes up my life.
somehow.. im afraid.
ppl like my dear nicole my dear huifen ......
yes. these are the 2 ppl who i alr treated as part of my family.
i hope we will nvr drift apart. mm. never.

....

ok. lets talk bout some happy things.
great sg sales is here alr!.
=D
happy shoppppinnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggg!.
ok. who wants to give me money so i can happily spend on e gss tt's here...
im broke. alright. im 1/2 broke.. hahas.
i wan money for shoppin.((:

2nd june is co bbq.
yea.im gg back. aft thinkin n thinkin. i decide to go back.
((:
to see my fave frns again.xD

cus last sat.evy1's busy.so class outing's postpone to this week.
((:

mm. 2nd june.3rd june. let's c..
6th june is wendy's bdae. 060606... nice no. nice date? hurs.. but..
9th june is my dearest nicole's 17 bdae. i promised to go out with her on that day (with fen.... xh?)

....
o yea.
da vinci's rili nice.
fascinating.
=D
i've yet to watch xmen 3. shit.
gotta catch it no matter what dis week.
hahahas.

right.
told ya.im losin e ability to blog.

this video's nice.
yup.

o.. lucify revived.
do vote for them tonight again.
xD lucify!.

-somehow it hurts me when u showed me ur gf's photo on sat.
yup. it did left me a sleepless night. well. i didnt plan on sleepin actually la.
but still. ur gf's pretty. so much prettier dan e ugly me.
=( u dint come on thurs. hw sad.
i think i shld stop gettin so obsessed with u.
i shld live my life as it is b4.
but stil it's diff. ((: cus ur' e guy i've yearn for.
a.l.g.h.

2006-05-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

the cruel fact.

been sorrowin up nwadays.
=(

i think im getting fatter. n i think im short.
=( went out on fri. saw a PRI sch boy who's ALOT taller dan me.
=( =( sad sad. whoever that newtown pri sch lil boy is.. dont let me c u again pls.
ur' so lowerin my already vy low self esteem.=(
=(

actually.
i dont know what to update .
seriously.

=(

im superly upset.
well.
that just happens whn u kno ur crush gt a gf.
=(
sad sad.
right.
he did came on thurs for like 5 mins to sign attendance?! dan he was gone...
=(
yea.
he got gf. he need to acc his gf wad.
so y is enqi so .... fuck up?so sour?

he's just a crush.i kept repeating to myself.
but y cant e tot of."he's-attached." leave my fuckin mind.
n y do i get upset evytime i talk to him.evn if it's a few sentences.?
stupid.
i think i gt too addicted.
too overly addicted to him.
wtf.
=(

!he's just a frn. stay as it is.
he's just a new frn i made.

BUT. it's so diff not to think of him wif some girl ..
=( tt lucky girl.
he says he's evil bf. but dan.. i tink he's swt to her.
=( tt damn lucky girl.
i tink im gettin jealous over tt girl. *pouts.

sad sad sad.

blame myself for gettin in such deep shit cus of too much addiction n too much obsession.
=( stupid .

well.
i cant think of anyting happy to say.

i dint went mi carnival.
was too tired. n huifen dint want to go.
somehow.. i just dont feel like doin anyting.
my whole mind filled with."he-got-gf."
shit.

but still i did talk to him a lil today.=( tt's sad. i shld stop my hands frm msn-ing him.
nw i totally understand daphne dear's agony.

=(
we shld go n party n get our minds off e sorrows.
=( tt's e same for geraldine too.
i so understand both of ur agony.
=(

=( sad sad sad.

-u wont know how much i felt like tellin u i lik u,
so many times i open e msn conv. n typed e words only to find out myself backspacing all e words.
luckily.
cus ur' attached.

2006-05-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

today is wednesday.
=((( i stil haf a lil time to convince my dad to lemme in beauty therapy. i want his consent.=(

well.. u dont know how happy im to just exchange a few words with u.

u say ur' nt gg on thurs.MAYBE.
u dont know how much i want to tell u... i want to c u .. i want u to go..=(
but dan i said it's useless to go to tt guy's class cus u wil just go dere late n sleep. well..tt's a fact.. i dont like tt mr "mao mao" . wadeva he says seem to be lullaby.zZz..
u said e classes are useless n lame..
n i added on e fact i go dere to copy ans n talk to my frns.. well..tt's true.. i dont tink i learn stuffs dere. rili.. i go dere copy ans on e board or try hard to do or copy sam's ans. dan i wil start chitchatting... hurs..
but i dint add 1 more ting. i go oso to catch a glimpse of u.
sighs.
u dont know how my heart is screamin "pls go on thurs. i rili want to c u."
well..
i dint kno hw to say it out.
i can only c u evy single week. ='( i just want u to go. HOW SELFISH IM.

SIGHS.
knowing how tired he will b in e classes.i secretly wants him to go.
selfish.

alright.
im turnin super emo.
i so wanna c him tml.
but who m i to say all these.

im rili unworthy of u.

2006-05-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

...
it happened not long ago...less dan 3 days.

i was so upset. i was so depress.
i felt so emo.
it was night time.
i walked to e toilet. not to relieve myself. but to shower myself back to my own senses.

as i walked to e toilet. i found my dad's packet of cigarette lying on e table. wads e brand again. smthn called dunhill or wad. red coloured-wif a lil golden tingy.
lying on top was a lighter.
i grab a stick along with e lighter n walk my way to e toilet..
tots flooded my mind.
y dint my dad brought his "life-killing/saving" packet wif him?
will my mom or bro wake up suddenly?
i pushed dem all aside n went in e toilet.
sitting down,i fiddled around with e stick n e lighter for 5 mins or so.
i finally lit it up.
e dirty ting irks me.e smoke suffocates me.
i wonder wad evn made me pick it up.
aft 30 secs or so..
i decide ..NO! not evn a puff.
i cant stand it.
i threw e stick str. into e toilet bowl n c it's immediate extinguish"ment".
dan i flush it down n swear nvr to evn touch it again.
i dont want to regret for e rest of my life bcus of a puff . bcus of a moment of avoidin reality.

well..
wad causes my pain.
wad made me touch tt ting?.

i dont kno.
i guess im ovr stress.
uh ya.
i got in simei beauty therapy.but my dad insist i shldnt go.
yea right.ur actions haf truly contradict wif e "wadeva-u-do-i-will-support-u-" words u put on ur mouth.

i dont kno y.
i get overly sensitive evy single time.
im super insecured.
n im super low in self esteem. yea.

='(
i look so hideous. n he look so hot.
wads more to say.?
i kno my own limits.i rili do.

whn he tries to shake me off wif a few words.
u dont kno hw my heart tears.
HURS.
he's just a crush . tt i kno.

i shld stop crushing on him b4 it's too late.
uh ya. i tink it's rili too late.
i seemed so super... addicted.

wadeva he says wadeva he does.
it made a rili deep imapct in me.

izit?

smthn made me evn worst ytd.
lucify went out.
='(
='(
='(
dey are rili gd.
i dont kno y dey are out. whn tt hideous XRF gets in evy single week wif e lowest point.
ya right. PROVE me dey gt more supporters. i bet e voting tingy is spoiled.
tt's y their votes are more dan lucify.
ASS.

but i super like e attitude of lucify fans.=)
dey are rili great n on.
dey made super friends too.
YEA.we wil work hard nxt week to revive lucify.
V-O-T-E.
we wil chiong.
((: when lucify fans unite.dere's nth we cant do.
((: lucify wil b revived.

ppl...watch wad u say anw.
i dont wanna hear any insults.
i will be nasty n ask u to fuck off.
=)

ya..dis seems a lil late.
but. mummy..happy mother's day~.
*i love occasions like dis.i get to eat my fave creamy cakes.
=) well. we celebrated twice. one for my mother..n one for my granny. =D
yummy cakes n yummy pizzas.=D

-sighs. i guess i shld stop gettin so deep in infatuation for u.
ur' too perfect .
i guess.
but dan. y m i so addicted to u?.
i so hope thurs faster come.i wanna c u.
ya.i so hope to c u more dan evy single week.
boy.u dont kno hw deeply crushed im.

2006-05-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

11th- was thurs.
went for e interview ..
got in.

my parents dint mind ite at 1st. i dont kno wad changed their bloody mind.
dey object to me studyin beauty therapy.
='(
n so i argued n argued. n argued.
no results yet.

thurs... met up wif youliang to get my dvd back. (huifen.happy anot?) actually.i was a lil afraid tt i wil get to c ashley. youliang evn wanted to ask ashley not to come. (cus gg to e movies.) bt i was tinkin. hey. im e xtra la. n so wad if i rili c him? hurs.
well..but in e end i dint go wif dem. cus i was tired. cus huifen's tired. cus im broke. cus huifen's broke. n we both agreed it's awkward.
we actually walk alot tt day.
n =) ya. we haf no sense of direction s usual. if nt for e fact youliang's nice enuff to bring us out.i tink we cld get easily lost.
well.. hmm..me n fen walk arnd. took fotos. chit chat. did stupid stuffs.
n we decided to go hm.(fen hated window shoppin.)

thurs... night.
well.. went hm..slept a lil .. dan woke up . prepare my stuffs. went to meet fen n kf. dan go sch.
evy thurs night my heart wil race faster dan evr.
palpitating heartbeat overwhelms me.
evy single step i took seems to get me further away frm e sch.
i dont kno why i feel dis way.
but i kno i oways get euphoric whenever i kno i will get to c him later..

well.. e teacher dint came. got a i-dont-want-to-comment- relief teacher to teach us instead. did practical on cations.
well.. well.

soon..it was break time.
i was super reluctant to get his no. frm him.
yea.my courage all gone .. cus i tink i just so uncomparable to him.
he's so hot. n wad if he reject to gif. n wad if he got a gf.

well. i promised fen.since i was late in e morn to meet her causin her to b late for e interview..

so we "stalked" him. he went to foyer ..n sat down dere.(dere are benches.)

vy reluctantly.. i wanted to walk away..but i was pushed by fen.
well. upon reachin him. he was about to make a call.. n dan.
well. i dint do any talkin. im sucha useless person.
fen help me to get it instead.
dan well.
ya.

i was hafin mix feelings at tt time.
it's so super.. gosh.
embarrasing.
but at e same time. im so super elated. i got his no.
=)

well..went to e canteen to join e rest(wenting.sam.johnson.maizarah(or smthn like tt.) n her frn.
ya.
dan fen got her 100 plus n went back to look for kf.

well.ya.

friday:
i cant believe i msged him.
so super. gosh. i cant find a word to say.
well.
ya.=)
n i got tickets to catch superband.!.
gosh.
.
tried to get my mum's permission to go.
wel.
u got it rite.
she dint gave me an ans.so i assumed i wil just go.

sat:
ya. mum gt flared up.
n i cant go.
FUCK.
im bloody 17.(tho i hope i dont get to 18 successfuly.i hope im dead by dan.)
tml wil b sunday.
tml wil b evn more hideous.
i hafta get my mum n dad to allow me to go ite for e time being.
cant dey just say a yes or evn a no.
n stop lettin me haf false hopes?

-i so super happy whnever i talk to him.bt i kno.
it's useless.
who wil wan a hideous person like me.
i shld kno my own limits my now.
sighs. bt how i hope .... ='(

2006-05-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

i tink im lazy.
im beginning to hate hols.
HEY. it's not like i dont wanna get outta dis fuckin room n fuckin home n breathe in some rili fresh air.
yea. well.

mon is hideous.i missed superband.
e result show is stupid. jing bao lose.
(but of cus.im happy lucify got in.)

tue.
went out. well.. gotten some stuffs.
n nw im broke. super broke.
im soo super broke.
repeated.

wed which is today.
im emo. super emo.
FUCK.
i rili want some tings to do..n not stone at dis fucking computer . typing o-so-useless-no-1-bothers-to-read-blog.
actually.. i got a call frm well-those-who-know-will-know.
yup. dey wanted me to go for an interview tml at 10am.
fuck. IT'S 10AM.
huifen's interview's on 9.50am.
so we decided to meet up at 8.30am.
yes. finally i got a reason to get outta dis home to get in some fresh air.
BUT IM SOO FUCKIN UNPREPARED!.
yea.. i tink e interview wil b super unsuccessful.
N TML IS THURS!.
e day i haf been awaiting for e whole week.
FUCK.
im soo havin a bad feeling bout this.
sighs. i dont want interview.
if it's on a fri..im absolutely fine wif it.
y thurs? super spoil mood can?
=(

well.
well.
well.

i tink i haf done smthn i shldnt haf done.
i dont know wether dis wil turns out good or bad.
i dont know who wil get hurt frm it ..
i know some 1 will if dis carries on..
bt some 1 will oso gain happiness thru it.
so super contradicting.
..

i hope tings wun turn out bad.
pls.

i seriously hope to get to know u tml.i so super crushing u. yes.
dis is so super not me.sighs.. even sam said i bu yao lian...sighs..
shld i evn talk to u? shld i ? shld i?
im soo super stress right now...

*i tink i stil loves ash. after oh so long.
sighs.

i tink im hafin split personality.
i dont know wads gg on in my head.

shld i or shld i not??

2006-05-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

Rules of the game:Post 10 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list 5 people who are next in the line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours.

10. im super in crush wif a person i dont evn kno his name.

9.i love talking to strangers.

8. i love doing nonsensical stuffs

7. i laugh at flashers.cus dey haf small penis n dey want to show it off.

6. i love auctions.

5. i love gg to thurs sci nite class.bt i hate sci.

4. i love screaming into e pillow n sing out loud.in e middle of e night.

3. i love e souind of thunder.but i hate lightning.

2. i love my telescope evn tho wad i c are satellites.

1. i love gossiping to my darlings friends.bt i hate being gossiped about.

i rili lazy to tag.tml dan tag la..

1. nicole sze.
2. tan zexing.
3.benn
4.peggy
5. huiyee

hahas..5 suay ppl..

yawns.i wil update tml.cya.

2006-05-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

hurs hurs hurs..
it's thurs today!..=)

huifen found a job.. but we dunno can anot la..
is at sp de pizza hut.
=))))

anw..
i tink lucify looks super cute in e video(intro part)..
dan e performance rocks man... =D im so glad the vk style is back!.
WOOT.
=D lucify rocks! enjoy e video.

thanks to Linx1105 ..=D

2006-05-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

yea..i kno.. lack of updates again.

hurs. hurs.. well..

i got a freakin sudden urge to get outta my house rush to e salon n cut my damn freakin hair.
ya i kno.compared to my sec 2 to 4 life..my hair nw is sooo much shorter..yes i kno. but but..
u kno.. i look myself in e mirror n i was like.. gosh it's long.
hahas. enqi's havin a lil mental disorder rite nw..

well.. mental disorder..hmm.. reminds me of e books i received in e mailbox on sat .
=D beams*.

www.goodybooks.com go dere n read low kay hwa's stories. "i believe you." "you are here" and "destiny's cries" e stories will easily land u in cryin heaven.
sighs.
got introduced to e story "i believe you" at ryan 's blog..
be warned .. dere's no ending.. to get e endin..u hafta purchase e books online.
=) well.. i cant resist rite? purchasin e books online are like much more cheaper la..
n it wil b sent to ur mailbox like str. away.
=)) 3 books for 20 bucks only (inclusive of e envelops.stamps.....)

gosh.
well..so i was like busy readin the books.. =) glad to say.i fin 3 of dem on sunday.
yea..

mon was labour day.
somehow.. i tink i worked myself even more dan usual.
HURS.
forced myself to wake up a lil earlier dan usual..
watched flintstone(awesome) dan 1.30 pm sharp.i changed e channel to channel 8.
=D

hurs.. wanted to watch ryan's wushu performance.(c how supportive im hurs?)

e starting of e programme are those campus superstars performin.
woot. zhiyang look so uber super cute pls..
=))

dan waited a wile. dam wait n wait..
until some ppl sing finish..
dan whn e emcee announced wushu performance or smthn like tt.
i went back to e comfy sofa in my livin room n started gluin my eyes on e tv to look for ryan.
hurs hurs hurs.
e performance was great.yep.
but i onli saw 2 scenes whr i can c a lil bitta ryan.
rili unclear.
bt nvm.dere's stil vesak day's performance n he wil b starin in incredible tales...
hahass.

dan evening..HCI strings ensemble performance. at vch.
=)
went to support calvin.
ya..annie cant go..so huifen n me went.
=))) we sorta lost our way pls..
dumb. hahas.. so we asked e security guard.. dan he look at us.. point to e clock n ask us to cross e bridge.blah blah blah.
while crossin e bridge..me n fen was like soo zi lian.(zi lian wu zui!)
hurs.hurs.hurs.
WE ARE LIKE RUNNING LATE already la.
hahas..bt e scenery vy nice.

well..reminds me of 260206.my cousin weddin la.
hahas. also near e bridge..ok..at fullerton hotel ..
wel well.

so whn we reach.i dint dare to go to e ticket booth la.
hurs. whn i finally pluck up my courage gotten my tixes..
dan i dunno whr to go.. tt guy point to e stairs. walk up and ya.
so we walk..dan hhaas.. waited outside for a wile..b4 e aunty let us in(we were late u c..)
hahs.hahas.hahss..

we sat bhnd.(sad.)
well..aft a wile.. some ppl came in(yes evn latr dan us.)
dan... i turn arnd.. kenny moses. -.-"
hahs..
i wasnt expecting any hkss ppl la.
hahas..
=)
well well.
e performance was FANTASTIC.
whoa-ing.
fen agreed.hahahahs.
=)) dere was a 20 mins intermision..
catch up a lil wif e man .calvin.
yes..a lil.
went to e cafe below... grab a can of milo n pringles. huifen got herself a tuna sandwich.. n we rush back to our seats again.

=) aft e whole show.. we bcame zi lian again. at e same bridge.wif e cats*hurs.n on e mrt back home.

well..

tue.
went isetan to get mother's day present for mummy.
well.got her a black outer.
=)
well well.

wed.
im rottin now. lazy to go out.
bt i haf e urge to rush outta dis house to e salon to cut my hair*repeated.

sighs. sighs sighs.
shld i cut?

2006-04-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

feelin a lil bored.. i wil talk bout what happened ytd n today aft finishin dis survey.. sighs.im rili bored.

what/who is your favorite:
1. person: =)))))))
2. drink: huh... well..alot..green tea?=)
3. song: hurs..it changes evy single time
4. food: well..alot.
5. thing to do all day: hmm.. spendin time wif my darlings?=)
6. late-night activity: sleeping.
7. number: four.

When was the last time you:
8. cried : hurs.. i cry almost evy single fuckin day?
9. laughed: just.
10. hugged someone: ehs..hmm.
11. slept with someone special: ......
12. felt depressed: ehs..hmm.
13. felt overworked: today.
14. lied: hurs. hmm.hurs.

What was/were the last:
15. words you said: ok.
16. sms about: tellin nicole bout sm1 i saw at hke. hurs hurs
17. song you listened to: yi ge ren liu lang - fahrenheit(fei lun hai)
18. thing you drank: green tea
19. place you went to: hke cc?
20. movie you saw: ehs..hmm..quite long ago ah..ehs.. date movie.hurs hurs.
21. movie you rented: er.. i dont rent movies. at least nt nw.

Who was the last person you:
22. hugged: ....
23. cried over: hurs..was tinkin of him.like suddenly..=(
24. kissed: ...
25. shared a secret with: ehs...guo wei? hurs
26. had a sleepover with:...
27. called: mummy.
28. went to a movie with: er..er... huh.. vy long le.
29. saw: ..ehs..mummy?
30. were angry with: no 1.
31. missed: hurs.him i tink.

Have you ever:
33. danced in the rain: yes yes..pri sch!.=)))))
34. gone to someplace special with someonespecial: ya duhs?
35. done drugs: Medication.
36. partied 'til the sun came up: nods.hmm.
37. gone out with someone special: ya.
38. had lunch with someone special: ya.

My life:
39. name: Enqi.
40. relationship status: single.
41. nationality: Singaporean.
42. occupation: student.
43. i'm feeling: unhappy.
44. i'm listening to: Sha gua - Chen yi
45. i'm doing: dis.
46. i'm thinking of: ...

Love
47. love:love wad?
48. in love: not rili.
49. my current love: hurs..
50. best love song: no particular 1...
51. is it possible to be in love w/ more than oneperson at the same time: NO.
52. is there such thing as love @ first sight: ya.=)
53. wat r u doing : ...n i tot i answered dis oredi. qns 45.
54. wat song r u listening to now: N i tot i ans oredi. stil sha gua-chen yi
55. wat color of shirt r u wearing: blue
56. wat is d brand of the shirt: hardrock cafe.
57. where r u now: My room.
58. wat r u thinking now: qns 46..

Picky picky:
59. dog or cat : no preferences actually.
60. sunshine or rain: Sunshine. bt smtyms rain.hmm.
61. hugs or kisses: depends.
62. summer or winter: Winter.we get summer all da time here.
63. playstation or nintendo: hurs.no preferences
64. car or motorcycle: car. bt i rili do like moto too.
65. house party or club: depends.
66. sing or dance: .

Brand:
67. where do u cut ur hair: sme whr arnd my hse.
68. what is the brand of ur bag: ehs.which 1?
69. what is the brand of ur wallet now: nightmare b4 xmas? hurs
70. what is the brand of ur sandal: which 1?
71. what is ur favorite brand of clothes: ehs..hmm.
72. what brand do u use for ur shower: Follow me.hurs hurs.=)

ok
i shall start wif ytd.n share a lil secret.
=)

i hate bein lightbulb .like seriously.totally.
bt ytd was diff.
i hafta go wif huifen n khaifang. s dey 1st time go nite class..nt gd to let dem search e class by their own rite? o well.
so..i went wif dem.
went in e class a tweeny lil late.yup..
settle down. look ard.. n nearly exclaimed .. He's nt here.
well..i dint.i jus told fen.. "nvr come".. n nudge sam.. "y nvr come.."
sam was like..huh?which 1? hurs hurs.
so i told him..e sleepin 1..n he knew it instantly..n i swear.his mouth bcame e biggest mouth i evr saw. he told wenting n johnson..bt of cus.johnson was like clueless ..since he nvr go for classes last week.
ok.. dan wel.. 2 mins or so..was spent on e issue. he nt here. hurs.
well..well.. dan i tried to pay attn to e teacher. yup. he was recappin bout last last week stuffs la.
so ya..
since he was late last wk..i was hopin he wil b late dis wk.. so i look at e clock. 725.ok.. stil early.
waited waited..listen listen(tho i heard more of e birds crowin dan e teacher talkin..)
dan i looked as e clock struck 8.
=( i gave up hope. n sam hafta add on to e fire.he spoke in chi.
"he dun come le la.. mayb cus he tot chem wil b s borin s last wk's phy..blah blah."
N I RILI lost hope he wil come.
=( yet i was anticipatin his appearance..since ytd nite..=((( hurs.. ok..a lil extreme.

well well..just whn i LOST ALL hope..
a ORANGE tee guy..vy strikingly stood at e door.
i dint rili go n look..tinkin it was phy class person or sme1 new.. dan frm e corner of my eyes.. sloppy kindda dressin..dan i look up..
N NEARLY EXCLAIM..i dint..instead i use e pen n poke sam's bag..
n huifen say him ah? so i look bhnd..n nodded.. FACE EXTREMELY RED.
dan sam tell wenting n johnson.johnson wif tt totally arghs kindda face.. he shuai(handsome) ah?
... ... ...
n I SWEAR HE LOOK DIS WAY. c we're creating a HUGE commotion over him..ahhhh.. hw embarrasin pls.
so it lasted for quite a wile..dan 6 pairs of eyes.(perhaps 5..kf dint look i tink.)
bt bt.. wel..he must've NOTICED it..n look here.. n my face was obviously red. red red.
omg.omg.

well.. aft e commotion..i steal a few glances of him.wif e fakeness of turnin bhnd to talk to fen.(he sits rt at e back of e class)..
well well...

=) totally hotness.
break came.
HURS..i took a foto of him..bt vy blur..=(((((
but but... it's him! hurs hurs hurs...
he dint went for break.
sighs.
i went to get chicken wing.=D yums.n drank green teaa.double yums.
well..went back at 9(supposingly break ends at 845. bt e lesson vy borin.so we went late.)
sam says e guy who went wrng class was at e back of phy class.hurs hurs.i dint c =(((..
well..bt..my attn was focused on him..tt i dun bother bout others la.
hurs.

so we went back..
stole a glance of him.. n started serious study.
dan a person frm phy class came..talked to e teacher..
dan our teacher announce. e worst announcement evr .
" UR phy teacher says dere's a test on waves n sound nxt week. = = "
WTF?! so s usual..wenting me sam johnson wanted to pon..=))) of cus.seriously..
bt..bt..if he's gg.. arhhhh..i will miss a wk of seein tt crush....+ hf n kf hw? ok..hf wil nt b happy if i pon n "ps" her yea? my darlin fen..bt she gt her darling kf wif her.. hmm. self debate.
we'll c bout it nxt wk.
=))) arhhh.craps.
i wan to c him.i dun wan test.bt if he oso wanna pon test...dan if i go..a bit..futile.hurs hurs.
yup.

dan soon..it was class over.
s usual..pay 20cents for e notes. s usual he was e 1st to leave.. n i tot i wun c him la..at e rate we walked.
bt whn we're reachin e gate.
e orange strikin colour tee was dere.
hurs hurs.
so i fasten my pace a lil.
=) wel.. dan he walk n walk..faster n faster..n we walk slower n slower.. dont wan to elaborate on dis...
well..so i tot i wun get to c him ..yes again.
bt bt bt... at e traffic light he stood. waitin for e light to turn green.
I FASTEN MY PACE like 2 times.
hahas.
n went over..bt s usual i dont dare to ask for his name n no.=( hw useless im.
dan dan..he walk away..to e side to e busstop..n cross e road illegally.i tink he's tired of waitin for e traffic.which later huifen msg me n told me he walkin to e canal ...=( ( i cant stop to tink..was he meetin his gf..i saw a gold ring(he's e same age s us.) on his finger..tt wk...=((((( )

sighs. chance gone.
well well..
bt at least i got his foto pls..
=)))))))

ok..
day end..

hmm today.
spent a lil morn on msn.
hurs..i kno guowei's secret.HUR HURS.
wel wel.
dan aft tt.. went to meet fen n xh n guowei take o's cert.
dan aft tt..cus i promised fen to go moe wif her..n to acc gw go dover..
we get on a journey on 198..
went moe 1st.. FREAK..y dont dey do traffic lights jus outside e moe? we spent like alot alot of time waitin for buses to pass.for cars to pass.for motors to pass.for lorries to pass..b4 huifen grab me n run.= =
well..dan reach moe.. e security inside was like..WHOA. got a visitor pass(vy hard to get 1 ok..)
went to customer service... n e person gave an add n ask fen to write a letter to SEAB.-.-
...
EHS.. i haven mention e impt part.
I SAW E GUY WHO WENT WRONG CLASS.. n i sorta stare at him to check wether i was correct..(ok.enqi's rude) ..n he noticed e stare n look at me.n i cont starin.(lucky he nvr bash me up.) he looks decent.. hurs.. n he was wif a acjc frn.. so i nudge huifen..dere..tt guy tt guy..e went wrng clas guy.*hurs(well.dis part i cant make it known.or i'll get serious trouble.bt huifen kno wads gg on.. n we smiled.)

ok.. aft e moe trip.fen hafta rush to causeway to meet kf.
so me xh n gw sat 198 to dover ite.. ah craps.. LIGHTNIN ALL OVER E PLACE.
ah crapppppps!. ahh. n we hafta walk a path wif alot of rain splashin on my face.
=( n we hafta walk an overhead bridge(WITH HOLES!)
ah craps.
c la. evyting i fear.
ahhh.
=(
inside e place..we sorta got lost.
wel wel.
dan finally get to e place.. gw went to register..evytings' done..we sat bus back.crap.i wan sit cab de.=( i was rili rili super tired.
=((((
dan aft tt..went hke wif xh.. ate dinner.
mc wings n green tea.YUMS.
dan went home.

ah..
tt ends my day.

=)))

PLS notice me.. im tryin all ways to gain ur attention. ur hot ur cute ur evyting.
it makes me wonder..hw come i wil crush on some1 i dint evn kno?. weird.
ur presence in class made me feel euphoric. =)))))

but e tot of ashley chong gets me =((( yes.i haven totally forgotten him.i love him stil.
perhaps whn i get to kno u more.. i wil stop cryin over ash. i hope.

2006-04-24T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hurs hurs...
=) y take my previous post so serious??
A crush just happens to any1 any single day....

.......

crush n love is totally different.

=.=

sighs.

gotten a terrible news today.. dont feel like elaborating.
='(

it's diff to forget some1 .. whn evyting n anyting related to him keeps haunting u..
rili rili rili sucks.

ok..

sat..
another terrible day.
dont feel like sayin.

sun.
slackin day.
sleep alot..watched wo de er zi shi lao da n zhong ji yi ban n ai qing mo fa shi over at youtube.
well..
dan ...
huifen n her sis came over to do sme tings..
well... til arnd 1030 dan dey went back home.
hurs..

so aft tt.. i tried to study a lil..
yup. dan aft tt..
went back to comp to help nicc do some stuffs.
dan .
huifen msged..arnd 1..
dan chat a wile.
aiya.
aiya.

aiya..

im lackin e feel to write..
arghs..

sighs.
i jus feel like...arghs.

Hitori ni shite.........

2006-04-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

apparently.. nth much is happenin in my life..
wanted to update for quite some time..
dint kno wad to update.
=)

ok..i shall confess smthn..
=) i gt a huge ..(ok..almost huge).. crush on dis vy cute.n cool guy in e sci class.
=) thurs' nvr borin(im lyin) w him.

thurs boring actually.
-- Phy teacher is crap. he can repeatedly repeat smthn.for 10 mins.
hahas..wenting evn made a song for him. which made me rofl.
chem teacher. xcept for his i-want-money attitude.. he's decent enuff to teach.

BUT.. tt guy's cute. seriously. Plus.
i can conclude. definitely.he's a drummer.
he keeps tappin his table(whn he's nt slpin) . n he spin e pen like he spin drumsticks like tt.

hahas.

but of cus.. e nicest lookin drummer is stil vics.
totally.
SUPPORT LUCIFY.period.

hurs hurs hurs.

i received a msg frm nicole like in 7+ am.
n it goes.. Enqi . my phone confiscated by ....teacher. she dun evn gif us back e sim card.
(ok..i cut short a lot.)
but.. but..
i was thinkin.. jc cnt take hp de arhs.
=.=" O pls. life wld b miserable w/o hp.. PLUS.. c e amount of time she hafta spend in sch?
poor nic.
my darling nicole is tortured in sch. boo hoo hoo.
ms Lit teacher. dont u realise no 1 in tt sch aint gt a hp?
PLUS PLUS PLUS. nic jus bought tt phone.. LESS DAN 2 WEEKS.
BLARDY teacher.

o anw..
i dont kno wad to write anymore..
seriously..
i wan to work.b4 sch starts.
zZz.

2006-04-21T10:57:00.000+08:00

snagged dis frm
eugene's blog.

You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!

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Journalism

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English

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Linguistics

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Engineering

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Dance

50%

Philosophy

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Art

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there's a tie breaker..cus psychology n sociology tied.but....
it shld b psychology la..=))) cus i did dis e previous time..bt accidentally deleted e results.=.=

PSYCHOLOGY!..WOOT! =D

2006-04-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

hmm hmm..
tml's hkss speech day.. i wonder y dis yr no buskin bazaar? lols.
i tot of gg back to c c..hahas..
=) n so askin fen nicc c dey wan go anot..lols.

sudden missin hkss..hahas.
let's c..
since sec 1..i haf been hafin ALOT of fun in hkss.
flashbacks flashbacks.
sec 1- 1a was e most united class i've evr been to lar... recess were spent together.. stay back at sch to fool arnd together.. evyting together lar..
tt's y we won campfire nite.1st prize.=D beams.
yup..1a was a hell lot of fun.
perhaps bcus we were all chi.=) (im glad..no racist prob.hahas. n oso since p5 n p6 oso all chi class.it wil b hard to get used to ya... no offense to e other races.=) ) anw... yup..yep. we won sec 1 campfire nite..our psls were glad for us n stuffs..yup we gt e nicest ppl for psl..(namely..erms.. sok hong.kelvin.clara.winne.bernard) beams
n sec 1.. dere was council.
=D beams. n i can say.. i enjoy council e most durin my sec 1 period. dance n dance.usher n usher.. =))) n dere was alot of us.. 18 of us if im nt wrng.. (which in e end left 10).
=) so in sec 1.. i gt alot of fun..
n i joined chi orchestra. i can say rili vy fun..cus we actually.. had a lot of 1a girls in it..=))) (tho e no. gradually decreases)..

sec 2- hmm.. our batch started e stupid streamin-in-sec 1 system.
so e whole of 1a cant bear to leave each other..but we gt no choice..n so ... we were streamed into various classes.
n im glad i gt into e over acheiver class-2a.
e ppl dere like chiong lar.. omg.. n ya.. cus i cant rili catch up.. i tend to slack.. n slack..
=) but..2a was oso 1 vy fun class. hmm.. =)) i stil rmbr we did badges to sell... n earn alot..hahas.. our class is like e most creative bunch lar.. actually oso thanks to ms loy who came up wif e idea.. hahas. sec 2 was fun. n sec 2 council...hmm.i cant rili rmbr much.. but i rmbr we did e badges tingy on b urself day.=))) beams.i had 2 fun experiences doin badges n sellin dem..
n i can say 2a was a rili huge turnin pt of my life.. my social circle sorta widen up. ya.. hahas. n i gt closer to xuehui gwen n kelly at dis tym..=)) beams. gwen cus we spent alot of time in class n in council.. n oso xuehui..my walkin home partner.n my mac partner..we spent alot of time aft sch together..kelly bcus she was xh n gwen's gd pal..n i click wif her !=))) beams.cus she's a rili rili nice girl..hahas..
n hmm..sec 2.. i gt in psl ..yup..n kno a bunch of fun-lovin ppl..(evn tho psl made up 70% of council.) hahas..=))) but ya..i gt to kno my juniors..(i was takin care of 1c tt time.n i rmbr my grp..er..ehs..suyi.weihou.syam.shengwei.yup=D) =))

sec 3 - as i said..i slacked in sec 2.. but jus nice..i went into e 2nd best class. 3c.. yes.. 3c was academically ranked 2nd.=)) well. sec 3 i spent most of my time in council..since at tt time.. ms teo was vy strict wif us..(we gt a change in council teacher. mr said-ms teo) yup.. n so we hafta spent alot alot alot of time in council.. n oso chi orchestra.. syf was like next yr..but we hafta prepare alot..=)) i dint regret.. i gt to work wif e council vy well..n i gt to kno better of my chi orchestra grp..=))) n oso..i got to b wif my clique- nicole huifen n xuehui.=)
bt i wasnt vy close wif my clique at tt time.. i sorta nvr go for their outings n stuffs.. cus i was rili bz.. n when i gt promoted to secretary/treasurer(ex-co) of e council..tings get evn worst lar..hahass...but i was glad i gotta kno ppl like junliang.mabel.serene..=D ...n dan..i was oso e psl durin sec 3..(str promotion since i was 1 in sec 2..hahas)
n so ya.. i took care of 1n2..that was whn i kno my cute mei meis (yingling ah..germaine ah..yu jing ah..xinyi ah..yang sing ah..) (o..n i rmbr my grp was..ehs..zongren.kenn.mark.shila..yup.) n so..=)) n oso.. aH.siao family started dis yr.. ( dere were alot of ppl..but started wif me n nicole n xuehui n huifen..dan kelly cheryl..dan gwen..dan peisian xin jie..dan grace.hahas.)...+++
plus sec 3 gt sec 3 camp!.=D huifen xh n me slept together..spent time fearing e lizards..n e cold bunk. lols.. n tt was when i rili rili love my class.=D beams.yep.=D n dere's adam khoo e camp.. 3a 3b n 3c together..hahas.. rili rili fun.=))) n e finale.. =)) read my memories over at e links.try to find ..ahas..nt gd to repeat all over again.but yup.=))) sec 3 is 1 yr wif ALOT of activites.lols..

sec 4- that was whn i spent more time wif e class.=) n i love e class.
perhaps is bcus we had an outing. n oso bcus we had a common enemy.e suen.n oso bcus of buskin bazaar.=D hw can we evr forget our dear dunkin machine tt brought us fame..lols.. hw can we evr forget e time suen dropped into e water.=D lols... hahas.
n that was when..i gt closer to my clique.. i get to love nicole.(i was once enemy wif her..i bet u all cun believe it.bt ya..we oways quarrel.fite.online war.) but ya.. i love her evr since sec 4.=D
n dan..ya..=) i realise.. 4c is 1 bunch of fun lovin ppl... =D n yes.. i miss 4c ALOT.
anw.. perhaps i gt e time to b get to kno better wif my clique bcus syf ended early in mar..bcus of outings..bcus of gossips.. n
bcus mr said came back to council..n we stand dwn early..lols..n i went out more wif my clique..=D
ooo..i dint said when i kno my clique..nope..nt in sec 3 ..
let's start.
nicole- kno her in sec 2..thru gwen ..hmm..
huifen- kno her in sec 1.. thru..MIRC. LOLS.!..yes..i used to use mirc to chat ..in #hks n #hks_1a.. ahas..but nt nw.. o..ok..wait..back to topic..yup..i kno huifen thru mirc whn she talked to me..hahahahahahs..=D
xuehui- same class in sec 2 ma.. hahahs.=) zi ran er ran.(naturally.)
n sec 4 was e time my batch of council rili work together as a grp..esp. e excos. e meetings in e aftnn.. n stuffs.. n e outings we had..e seoul garden meal.e trainin camp we had(tt was whn i realise jon jon is 1 hell nice team mate.=Dbeams.)..n mackenzie rex+plaza singapura fun.. yup..
tt made me realise.. i dint wan to leave hkss at all..
dis 4 yrs are e greatest part of my life.

n so..

happy bdae hkss..

=D

*yawns. tirin day..mite haf mistakes here n dere.='( bear wif me.
arghs.=( scared of smthn. i fear mite happen.=(

2006-04-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

5 things tt's makin me happy rite nw.
1. zhiyang won css.
2. he smiled at me.
3. i look into his eyes.=)
4.=) im gg hci strings concert.
5. i gt my telescope =D

5 tings tt's makin me bad rite nw.
1. i dunno hu he is.
2.i dunno his name n no.
3. i stil love as****
4.i gt rejected.
5.appeal to sp is unsuccessful.

2006-04-06T14:54:00.000+08:00

I said i wil come back "photo whorin" ..all fotos will b vy n i mean VERY random..cus 1st c 1st serve..=) uploadin frm photobucket ma..so ya..=) vy random..but..enjoy(if u dun like n tink dey are fuckin hideous which i believe wun b ..click X.=) )

nouxian..e pro at pool.=)

spilled milo.. yup.i accidentally spilled it whn i wan to take it to e kitchen. lucky ants nvr come to my precious room.. but anw..huifen tot it was artistic..n decide to take a foto of it.-.-

huifen will kill me if she sees dis..she's in my specs...=D i tot i deleted it ..but it was in my fone.. gosh..fate lar..=) sorry fen..

youliang drew tt.. freak lar!.he drew tt wif a mouse.. omg..*JEALOUS.

more of tt drawing.

gorgeous nicole in lien's cap..lols..=)

cute cute fen in my cap.=D

cutest guy..=))zhiyang!!=D

huifen says he looks like bob e builder.=D yep.i agree..lols.. weijun .=D

My daughter..tiffanie..=D yingqi..=D

stupidity kills..i hope i wun die bcus of my stupidity.='( lols..i wasnt cheatin..nod nod.i was jus foolin arnd.n being stupid

spencer..Cute..=D 1 of my fave morn session student.

shanelle.i hope her maid dun bully her again.=) cute.

ron..=Dcute.

if she keep quiet..she wil b vy quiet..whn she talks she wil b vy noisy.qian yu

pernette.. shout alot.complain alot hahas..but cute.=)

pauline's cute daughter.=)

fen nicc n me are bored.n we tink e cat's cute.=)

Louis vy cute..louis~my fave k2 student.lols=)

interview at e kindergarten..*nervous.

new yr eve.me n fen.=D

lols..e cat again..lols

daoxin n joshua.lols..dun dey look like a couple?=D

i tink im bein bias.but i jus sooo love casey gum.=))

camille. love to pon sch..n she's onli 5.lols..

audrey.steal tings at a vy vy young age..sighs..lols..love seekin attention alot too..hmmm.lols.

angeline.sis of angelica.lols..i dunno wad else to say. oo..dey look cuter in real life.serious.much more cuter.

angelica.sis of angeline.lols.

super cute.

i like dis.*HINTS.=D.

nicole's glowin shoes..

last day of work.hahas.n nicole decided to take fotos of e diff corners of her nursery class.

LOLS..huifen oways kena disturbed..

what we ate on our last day....

darlin nicole n darlin huifen.lols.....

n dere.another corner......

oo..i like e boder.=))

LOLS

=) i look soo hmm.ugly.wif spencer next to me.=) lols

=)jus conc on lookin at dear casey..lols

=)jus conc on lookin at dear casey..lols

i miss casey alot.she n her famous =P pose.='( i miss her.

aunt comp..since she's wanted a new 1..mite s wel..tear e old 1 off.wahahas..

LOLS..more of e poor comp.

lookin stupid.yes.bein a lil self-obsession.a lil onli..

aft cousin weddin.outside fullerton hotel.e nice nice scenery.sighs.it was 260206.

i felt rili bliss at tt moment.cousin weddin..dey are exchanin vow.cousin-in-law's a jap.n whn he's exchangin vows..he tried his best to speak eng..=) bliss.bliss. ya. n again. it was 260206. ='( ='( ='(

shanelle wif qiao lin behind...

jun le is 1 handsome cute lil boy frm miss gan class *dun worry.im nt paedophile...

bein bored while tidyin my room...

i kno we look obscene.but fen n me are totally str....

d-o-r-a-e-m-o-n.

feedin turtles.=)).

taken on v'day ..was vy bored..lols.

takin wif e 2 cute couple.=D.

darlin nicole wif my daughter..lols.

i kno..ugly me...but he soooo cute..so i cant resist postin dis up too.

darlin nicole n kenneth leong at je kpool..lols..i jus sorta want to put dis up..but i wun put nicc n mine up..u can c it over at her blog.but but..i look hideous so dun c better.=)..

feelin kindda bored...lols.tt's kenneth leong(he taught me hw to play pool!)

=))

lols..rili bored.

=)guo wei.hahahs.

=)e 2 innocent cute couple.spencer n casey.

tt was b4 spencer falls for qiao lin..poor casey... e nature of guys!.sighs.

ok.i look ugly here too..but i was doin e same ting wif weixuan.n i swear.conincidence!.

my two fave.=).

n he's super cute!.

darlin nicole n our cute casey gum!.

darlin fen n me was vy bored..so we went to try our luck.n we gt e whole series.lols..!.

xue hui..!.lols

darling huifen vy hungry tt day..i dunno y..lols

n e 2 of dem keep eatin.i was soo full oredi lar..n dey eat n eat n eat...

fen neglected me for her fone!.lols =P..

me n darlin fen..=) bored in e train lar..lols..

she was sleepin..darlin huifen..

n i disturbed her.dun wan let her slp..n all was captured by darlin nicole..lols..

my mummy's god son..zhong han..han han..cute cute!..

cute.=).

playin wif e polyfoam bals.=)

n qian yu loves to "nua" me..

jun long gets angry easily.rili.looks are deceivin..

yunqi nvr smile..but i love her birthday goodiebag e best.n oso i love e yummy cake.=)*licks

Justin mummy gave me ang bao ..=) generous 1 .. n justin cried when he kno i was leavin.aww.

ariz.my pretty boy..

Harith..=)) smiles..cute..

dere's shaheera n syafiq*WINKS.=D (hkss ppl kno wad i mean) in my class. dis is shaheera..but i nvr capture syafiq...

harith n ariz fight over her..aww.kids nwadays..lols...

she's super cute n NAUGHTY..vy naughty.n cries alot.alot.justina

sharin..he used to keep his mouth shut.he dun talk at all.=) but i changed him.=D

n yenting..is a vy gd girl..seriously..n she used to cry alot.

rebecca..yup..another of my fave student whn i went over to k2 to help.*yup im k1 teacher.but i go nursery n k2 to help.=)..

rebecca..=)

darling Huifen will totally agree wif me tt LOUIS vy cute.!=D

n dis is vy nice..n funny.hahas.. ya ya.nt i draw 1..='( youliang drew it.

DIS is 1 book tt made me rofl!.=D yes yes..enqi does read books.once in a wile.=)

i found dis D.A.I single..along wif some other stuffs at granny hse*BEAMS..i dint lose it.=D BEAMS!..dis single..is a gif frm some1.=) n it cnt b found in sg.+) tt's y it's My Preciouss.=)

i wrote e above 1.. e below 1 ..e zhiyang name is written by darlin huifen.lols.=)) zhiyang zhiyang zhiyang..oooh..n e date is april 2nd.read it like dis.. mmddyy

hu in e rite mind can understand dis..hahas..except daddy.lols.

my telescope b4 settin up.. yes..dere's alot of tings..

all e tiny tiny tings are hidden in e white box..

vy excited in e cab...so i took a foto of it....

artistic..e raindrops on e hmm.wad u call tt?lols...

ok..fen..revenge for u..hahas..in huifen's specs..hahahas..jus like huifen in my specs..n we exchange specs..okok..dun confuse u all.=)

thanks to my dad...e final product!.=D

BEAMS.=D my telescope.

playin arnd wif my telescope..BEAMS.

LOLS..huifen drew dis..n oso for those hu manage to read all e fotos =)) smile!

lols..latr gt nite class.time to prepare...i jus love my telescope..sighs..i found out smthn tt makes me vy sad rite nw..yes..smthn..smth..hais. e fd3 movie tickets. i ya. e 2 tickets are wif me.n so.. he dint took it.. i dunno y tt made me upset.seriously..-.-

i tried to act nonchalant.. tryin to forget e past..tryin to divert attention all to zhiyang(LOLS!) .. i failed.. deep dwn inside me.i kno.i stil love him. i oways do.. sucha huge mistake. my mistake.='( sighs.

o..i gt e reject letter frm sp oredi..dis sucks.='( sighs... all e bad tings came to me in 1 big shot. i gt e letter e same time i found e other ticket.='(

2006-04-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

yes yes..bloggin again.. nt like any1 rili reads what's happenin in my life. well.well. hahas. it's a gd ting or a bad ting? lols..

anw.. today hp died dwn.. low batt..n i wasnt at home.
sucks lar.. i cant live w/o my fone..
n SORRY ZEXING..shit..i was suppose to meet him..but hp died dwn..sorry sorry.
=) *appologetic.

yep..
1 vy happy ting happened.
BEAMS* i got my telescope.
=) whees. wad can anyting b s happy s havin a telescope in one's room?
=D beams beams beams.

well.. haven set up yet.. tryin to fig e setup out.
hahas.
i dun post fotos nw adays.. perhaps..latr..i wil take lotsa fotos of my dear dear telescope..
n dan i wil start "photo whoring" =D

lols.

i dint get my telescope in an ez way ok...
tt's y im like..vy vy vy vy vy protective n excited over it..=)

i went ps actually.. carrefour lar.. cus fen told me at carrefour..dan ...walk n walk..=( cnt find.
so i went for lunch..n went suntec.. u kno..e route to suntec is like..vy long.. n it's rainin HARD.
ass lar..=( dan i realise i mus rush. *mus watch repeat telecast of css.
so.. i look like a "goondo" in suntec(carrefour) ..
walk n run inside..stil cant find telescope..
DAN whn i was gg to give up..or rather call fen to ask whr ..
TADA!~ it appeared in frnt of me.
sooooo suddenly k..=D
=)) beams.

n dan quickly grab 1 box *it's packed into boxes oredi
dan went to e cashier.. wile walkin to e cashier..dere's dis guy*workin in carrefour..suddenly gave me a trolley.. so nice of him..hahas.. i was declinin..s i can take it wif my hands.*muscles ..lols* but he insist tt i take e trolley..lols..
ok..so i took it.. free trolley of cus take lar. hahas.. dan rush to e cashier..paid e money n curse e lift to faster come..n run to e taxi stand..n quee up. e quee was like freakin long lar.
n i was lookin s e time for dunno wad reason rush it way to 4. my css repeat!.arghs..
but luckily i got to gran's hse at 4.12pm(i looked at e time.beams) missed a lil tho..but nt all..phew..=D

o ya.. e telescope is like 44.90 ONLY!.=D =D =D
rili cheap lar.
=D beamsssssss!.
wif 1 yr warranty.=D

ok..so yep.

jus ate dinner at mac wif darlin nicole.=D beams.
nicole stil look s hot.. n she's nw vy vy tall.. =D
anw..ate at mac... fish lost her shoes..or rather some1 took her shoe..lols..
wan ying was like.. hw hw hw? n fish was like HOW HOW HOW...
lols.
so...anw..i dint kno wad she did in e end..
hahas.
she haf a lot of ideas like go buy 1 opp (dey sell 10 dollars black sch shoe.)*tt's my idea actually.
or go borrow frm a person.i forgot e name.lols.
wadeva lar.
=D
dan i was talkin to nicole.. GOSSIPS.=D
*shhhhh.
lols.
n i was rantin bout zhiyang.
=D i denied e fact tt i wil hug zhiyang whn*if i c him
=D
lols.
i denied..but ya..darlin nicole gt it rite..i wil do jus wad she said.
LOLS!.

zhiyang zhiyang..

hahas.. so anw.. nicole is stil s pretty. 170cm hot babe.
=D
hahas.

b4 i forget..
hu wans to go hci strings performance? 10 dollars per tix.. tell me by hmm..next week lar. im meetin calvin nxt week for e tixes lar..lols.
=D
lols..mus support calvin lar..
but in my hr8 --*zhiyang sch mus go support lar.
LOLS.
=)

im sooooo totally obsessed bout zhiyang.
o well.
n so i gt angry*a wile onli* whn i read e iweekly.
arghs.. he gave dat sin huey his no. n sin huey says: i nvr gif him mine..he gave me his..
ARGHS.
ARGHS.
ARGHS.

maddening lar.
hahahas

ok.. shall come back to blog wif fotos latr..
hafta set up my telescope 1st.

til den.

*i miss him sooo much. im glad he is hafin fun in his life. sighs. i tot i was keen in forgettin him.but i guess determination n mind loses to e feelin in my heart.='( i stil love him . n i jus cant bring myself to hate him. o .i hate e tears tt fuckin flows in da nite.='( sighs.

JYA NE!

2006-04-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

i tink im super obsessed wif zhiyang.
he's a perfect guy lar.
P-E-R-F-E-C-T.
n his singin..=D nvr fails to make me drool.
=D he oways melt my heart lar.
omg.
=D n i cant stand it whn ppl talk bad bout him
I CANT STAND IT.
dun make me hostile against u.thank you.
=D

poor zhiyang .. 2 lcd tvs for 4 mths of tears.hardwork.stress.
=D but im stil glad he won.
=D
huifen make me look silly in class lar.
i burst out laughin when i receive her sms tt goes something like tis
: 2 lcd tvs.. zhiyang want to cry .. 2 tvs 1 put in living room..e other 1 put whr? toilet arhs..end le..
ok..e 1 in bold made me burst out laughin suddenly in class.whn evy1's so quiet..
ok..lucky i dint laugh REALLY loud.
e toilet part made me laugh..
lols.

ya.. mdc dumb or wad? 2 tvs..
=.=

=D anw.
im gonna watch e repeat telecast..
miss e superstar party due to classes.ass..shit..=(
lols.
nvm..gt repeat.whees.
=D
beams.

n endurin e 3 hrs class's tough lar.
sians.

hahas..im glad...saw nicole jus nw.
hahas. chio chio.=D my darlin .
=D hahas..

ok.

end off wif.

i jus sooooo love `zhiyang.
yea. gonna watch his videos over at youtube nw.=D
whheeees..
zhiyang zhiyang zhiyang!.=D

2006-04-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

ok.. hmmm..today's a day at hm.. nt gg out.. except for latr nite class.
=D im stil vy vy happy.
=D zhiyang won.. so anw.. ytd vy happy.. n was chattin wif calvin.. who's vy happy too.
lols.. no lar.. actually it was me bein vy excited..n i cant sleep..so i started talkin to calvin..hu haven done his hw bcus he was bz supportin zhiyang.LOLS.
we started smsin..sms sms sms.. IM RILI JEALOUS. calvin gets to talk to zhiyang whenever he wans lar.. n HE GET TO C ZHIYANG EVYDAY IN SCH. JEALOUS. lols.

n we were talkin bout zhiyang .. n i was rili vy high n happy.=D beams.
so we talk n talk..
n suddenly..we talk bout superband..n suddenly he told me he heard lucify's rili gd.
n i was like.. OOOO..u kno bout lucify too?!!
=D yes.i support lucify.. ziwei(shinya)'s band..been supportin him since sec 3..(genexis) so..anyway..
=D beams.. LUCIFY.. n we like vk ..so lucify is gg e vk style.n yees.=D
n lucify's drummer.vics.is super super cute.n shuai. rili.
so watch big jam n u wil kno.
=) vics..wheee.=D

wahahas.
support lucify!

n buy zhiyang's album.

dun u all agree..zhiyang done rili well ytd? he melted my whole damn heart la.=D beams. hahas.
i keep irritatin lien n youliang n huifen ytd...lols..thanks arhs..lols..kept me acc thru e whole css shw...ahahaahahahahs.. huifen esp. we were on da fone..n she hafta tolerate my screams n laughter thruout e whole show.=D
thanks thanks thanks.

hahhahas.

=D zhiyang.zhiyang.zhiyang.
lucify.lucify.lucify.

e idol craze. arhhh.=)

ok..ppl..=)) im gg to update my link soon. hahas.but nt today.=) smiles

cya ppl arnd.=D

* i stil love him.i tink i wil go crazy tinkin bout him all day all nite long.=( cryin evy single nite doesnt help at all. =( i stil feel bitter inside.i stil feel like dyin.='( can some1 pls help me.=( sighs.

2006-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

to supress my nw vy excited mood cus zhiyang won.=D
won campus superstar.
freakin excited can?
=D
=D
BEAMS.
he won he won... WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.

so..to supress my vy excited mood nw. i mus do smthn .. snagged frm daph's blog
daph's blog

True if pink in colour..

I miss somebody right now. yes..sighs.alot.=(
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books. textbook alot..hehs..nv thrw any of dem ..lols
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. alot.=)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor evrywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes. *most of da times
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. i need money all da time.
I love sushi. absolutely.=D
I talk really, really fast. sometimes..=) hahahas
I have long hair. consider long la.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. 1 elder bro.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. A L O T
I have a hidden talent. HEHS HEHS
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends. i gues. =D
I am currently single! sighs.
I have pecked someone of the same sex. mummy on da cheek.=D
I enjoy talking on the phone. evy single day!.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. ALOT
I enjoy window shopping. OF CUS.=D
I would rather shop then eat. purple cus it depends.i love food alot too.
I don't hate anyone. i forgive ppl easily.=)) mayb dislike some ppl lar..=) bt no hate no hate.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before. =( oops.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. a boy n a girl.
I have changed a diaper before. fail lar..but..ya..han han~.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. duhs?
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. it depends.hahahas.
I have tried alcohol before. I LOVE IT.=)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. most of e time.=)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. halloween is awesome but nt bcus of e candy
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.nt all epi lar..lols.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!! OF CUS.. zhiyang won won won won won!!!!
I'm obsessed with guys. I m onli kindda obsessed with zhiyang.=)
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. *chinese orchestra de lehs.=)))
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage. Yummy.*dun tink obscene.
I love kisses. *MUACKS.
I fall for the worst people. SIGHS.=(
I adore bright colours.=))
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. pen consider?
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves.
I have ridden/owned a horse. ridden.=))
I still have every journal I've ever written in. yes...evn my kindergarten 1..evn tho i dun understand wad i wrote...hahahs...
I can't stick to a diet. zZZz..=( i love food too much.
I talk(swear) in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. SIGHS.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with. aiya. life is like dis.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. obviously..im gonna b a cosplayer man.. but tt costs money..Zzz.*hints.lols.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. =D SMILES.
I am an adrenaline junkie. hehs.=D

yeaaaa..im stil excited.
ZHIYANG WONNNNN.. *whistles.claps.whistles.

2006-04-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

Hehs.. since my dear dear nicole blog.im gonna blog oso..=D

ok.. life is stil da same..=) happy happy..dan sadd...depress..dan happy dan depress.
hahas.. like roller coaster like tt lor.
=D

anw..
dis post is more like a thanks givin post to my goody frens.=D

Nicole- orange n green is her fave colour.hahas. ok..=) nicole is my darling. i love her.seriously. she's 1 preety babe.preety n smart.=D plus hot. i i repeat.i love her.=D n she is dere whn im havin heartaches. whn im cryin. whn im laughin. whn im vy vy high n has no 1 to high wif me. she is dere practically whenever i wanted her.=) n so.. nicole darling.i promise i wil oways b dere whenever u need me.jus a call(or rather a miss call) n i wil b dere! WHEEs.=D N oso cheer up girl.=D let's thrw all e unhappiness away*hugs*.. n ='( *jealous* go out wif me lar..=(( u gt new frens..dan nvr hang out wif me soooo long ler..hahahas..=(( dun b soooo bz lar...hahahs. but im sooo glad u love ur new class=D ... smile!~!!n i jus love gossipin wif nicole..i love talkin to her..n we oways go crazy over dis n tt.=Dlols. n so.. i wil tell e world again. I LOVE NICOLE. MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!.

Huifen.- yellow is her fave colour.. but yellow makes it diff to c wad im typin lar..=(
Huifen is another of my darling.. =D i love her too.=))) i rili love her. she is cute n adorable.preety n huggable.=D ok.. khaifang mite get jealous. hahas. anw.. she is 1 strong girl. or shld i say act strong kindda girl. o c'mon.. u can thrw all ur sorrows to me. =D dun worry girl.
i will oso oways b wif u my dear dear girl.=) thanks for comin to my hse when im feelin sooo super depress to cheer me up. n thanks for walkin arnd e neighbourhood wif me ... hahas.. we look stupid ..but dan again..=D we love our neighbourhood rite? hehs..
we love gossipin bout stars.dis n tt..n gossip bout evyting.=D
n i can tell e worl. I LOVE HUIFEN.. MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.

xue hui- her fave colour is black. ok..=) nicc n fen wil agree tings is totally diff w/o xuehui. hehs!.=D
anw..=) im glad she found her ahems. ahahahahahahahs. well well.
thanks for pourin to me ur sorrows. n hearin me thrw mine too.hahahas tho.. hahas.=D
muacks!.

zexing.- i jus tink dis colour suits him.=D he's my rubbish bin.=D n he's a vy vy vy nice guy to b wif lar..=) i oways thrw all my stuffs to him.=D we dun haf much in common.but dan..we haf lotsa tings to talk bout.. hahas.. life wil nv b e same w/o him s my rubbish bin..plus..he's treatin me movie nxt week.=D so mus say lotsa gd stuffs.LOLS..i love bullyin him ok.. zexing papa..i love u. =D he's my daddy..i forget to say.=) n i love gossipin wif u.lols.
Thanks for evyting.MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!.

annie- her fave colour is green. annie is 1 of e juniors i actually can b vy gd frens wif.. she is my love.=D ok..well...i oways thrw in my sorrows to her oso.. she oways listen.=) she is a gd listenin ear kays..=D but she dont talk much lar.='( pity.. hahas.. she is a great person to hang out wif.. to talk to well..over msn n sms..she dont talk much in person..lols.. but she's a great pal.=D
dun get over stress k? i kno ur rili stress in class nwadays..dun ok? n find urself a nice guy.dun tink bout him anymore.=))) dere ar greater guys for u ok? thanks for evyting. love annie!.=D
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!.=D

Junliang- his fave colour is black. =D he's vy fun to b wif.. nt forgettin HOT.=) he likes ppl to call him hot.. bt if u wan me to say e truth..he's cute. SUPER CUTE. esp wif tt new braces of his. SUPER DUPER CUTE!.=D he's rili sweet at times..tt time whn i gt my o's results.. he .. brought me 1 WHOLE PACKET of tissue papers! inside gt like alot alot of tissue papers. n huge packet of seaweeD!. i dint kno he rili bought dem lar.. i was jus passin a remark la n he rili bought dem. n whenevr i m like sooo sad.. he cheer me up evy single time.gd luck in gettin ur j**** =D thankss sooo much.
i love junliang too. =D MUACKS!.MUACKS.MUACKs.MUACKS.

Jon- i dunno his fave colour..bt since his msn uses black.so black ba..=D
jon jon jon..cute n funny!. rilI!.. whenever im sad rite.. he wil b dere cheering me up..n he make all my sorrows turn into jokes.. i laugh practically evytime i talk to him. hangin out wif him means laughter n fun!.=D
n he oways make me miss council lar.. hafin council sec 4 outings mus haf him lar..=D e fun wil nvr cease ...
MUACKS JON..thanks for being my happy happy nut.=DI love Jon!.
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!

Wendy - she likes blue i tink.=D Wendy's my rili rili best fren.=D i miss e time we spent in council ...n chinese orchestra.n e gossips we had..=D hahas.. dun get over stress over ur o's dis yr ok.. try to go out more often durin council sec 4 tings.
MUACKS. kno wad? i love wendy to bits.=D serious ok.she's cute.preety.nice.n all.but she's attached lar. =D but.. i love her.=D
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!

Lien- his fave colour red...=) a rili great fun guy to b wif..=)) he treated me to movie b4.=D beams.* ok... he listen to my problems when i cun find any1 to pour to in da middle of e nite or whn im bored at msn..
hahas..he wil entertain me.. n all my childish stuffs. a great fren to b wif. =D anw. cheer up k.. dun oways so upset. =)) i wil b dere to listen to ur whines oso la.=)) cheers.Love ya. Muacks muacks muacks muacks!

guowei- i tink dis colour suits him.=)) he cheered me up when i was down.=) he talk sense into me.. he gave me gd advices..=Dthanks so much boy.hahas.. n he's rili rili rili a funny guy. love ya.
muacks muacks muacks muacks.! dun get sad ok?
=D

Daphne- thanks for being dere..sighs..we suffered e same bad fate.. we click so well together.. love u dear!!.=D thanks for e fun together..hahas..=) mus mus mus go out again.. dis time we go guy ogglinnn.=D hahas.. daphne's a hot n pretty n nice girl to b wif..
i love her.
yes
MUACKS! MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.

Nouxian- thanks for evyting..u rock my world too..mus go out again ok? i love hangin arnd wif u.. n i love ur big hug.=D i love u girl. frm e time we knew each other..we click well n i can say ..i love u.=D
thanks for evyting.
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!.

youliang-his fave colour is red... hahahas.. i nvr c him b4 *sighs... but ya.. he's my kor kor *beams..=D he oways cheer me up wif his funny stickman n stickwoman drawings lar.. he's talented in drawing.. n nvr fails to make me laugh..dun worry kor kor..=D u will get her in no time.i believe.. thanks for evyting.u rocks.i love u
MUACKS!.MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.=D

ok..fin..=D
all my frens rocks lar.=D
i love dem

ok..watchin campus superstar nw. Y Y Y Y IS ZHIYANG VOTES LESSER DAN RENFRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PPL VOTE VOTE.
VOTE FOR ZHIYANG!
c'MON dun b lazy
VOTE.
M1 M1 M1 19001127701 FASTER
VOTE NOW..

2006-03-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

i found out smthn i shldnt.
nw i feel so fuck up.

=(

went out wif daph n nouxian today.
i gt reall funn..
=) we watched my girl n i..=))) played pool..took neos..walk arnd.
hahas.

n i can say 1 ting.
it's fun gg out wif dem.
i cant wait til i go out wif dem again.
=D

anw..i dun feel like bloggin suddenly.
aiya.

vy vy fuck up nw k?

gd nite..n cya all.

2006-03-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

it's less dan 3 more hrs..
n i promise to keep him in my heart.
to pray for his happiness secretly.
to wish him all da best wif his another girl.
to b his lil secret admirer.

yes. it's gg to b e last time i wil b whining bout him.
LAST TIME.

=( today supposinly 1st mth..
it hafta b e day i end it all..
i cant cont whinin forever n nt move on wif life rite.?

so..less dan 3 more hrs.
whn e clock strikes 12.
i wil b dead. literally dead tt is.

anw..

happy bdae Daphne... er...i mean belated.

she is 1 nice girl... n she can read my mind!!!!!!!..i wanted to watch my girl n i for a vy vy vy vy vy long time..evr since he told me is a gd film to watch..n he promised to bring me go watch.. i had been tellin nicole bout it..but nic told me it wasnt showing anymore..i went to look for vcd..but i cant find it ( of cuz ...since it's stil shwin actually)
=((( but.. nvm..i got daphne to watch it wif me in theatres kays..=D ...XD

oh gosh oh gosh..
=))
my girl n i..
=))))))

i m holdin dis tiny lil hope...
less dan 3 hrs oredi..

dis tiny hope..tt he wil.....=))

sighs.

2006-03-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

='( i begged him. i pleaded him.i cried n cried n cried.
i dint sleep ytd nite.
n he ignored. he dun gif a damn.
='( i jus want to kno wad i did wrng.i wil jus changed.
sighs. i've done enuff.
i tink...or actually..i've done nth 2 salvage dis broken relationship.
i love him.='(

ok.. anw.. today's suppose to tidy rm... cut hair n stuffs..
i dint sleep. so i ..yup.....daddy brought pizza.. =) my breakfast cum lunch.
seafood pizza..=D yum yum.. so we ate pizza today.. omg..so full pls.. i tink i cun evn eat dinner.

suppose to meet hui fen at 3.30... she acc me cut hair..n i gt vcds to lend n rtrn to her.
=D she's a darling rite..
=D =D =D =D she acc me go cut hair..bt i dragged n say meet at 4..but..e rain starts fallin..
n so we ar meetin latr.
lols.
=.=

was chattin wif nicole durin her break... hahas.. seems like school is a bit boring..
=) she's learnin chim chi.. dan nxt time she will tell me confucious teachings..lols..
im glad she love sch..=)) she's a darling too..=) she kept me acc dis sad....sad.... day.

=D n she makes my mood happy..=D

n yupp..

benn was tellin me tt ... whn evy couple end.. the he wil nt reply me nor call or wadeva..because the he wil tink tt we need time to cool off..o well.hmm..

reasonable la..=D ok. but..i rili wan his reply..sighs. i jump at evy sms received. tons of dem..but none his.

today gt campus superstar comp...

YEA!.

=D zhiyang zhiyang zhiyang! =D ok... rmbr to call 19001127703...8pm to 10pm..call call call..dun sms..cuz oways vy lag lag der..=D ok..

hafta go prepare to meet darlin fen..=D cya ppl.

2006-03-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

i kno i m being stupid.
for all e whinings n scoldings n all..
in concl.short 1.. is i love him.
i love him. n i love him. n i stil love him.

i kno i wil nvr b e perfect girl he wants.
i cant love myself . hw can i love another 1?
jus like nicole said. i cant b perfect.. n so hw can i ask him to b perfect?

i kno my mistakes..
if he evr were to come back in my life..i wil nvr evr make any mistake.
perhaps i mite..bt nt major ones.
=(
bt.i kno he wun come back.

i realise..i m back to my old habits.
fuckin bad habits.
i wonder hw many cuts to death.

=(.
i need more medicine.

it's hard lookin at e mirror w/o scoldin myself.
i wanted him to live in guilt. actually i lived in guilt myself...for pushin him too hard tt he wans to getaway.

i almost smash e mirror. control.control.

it's nt gd to b so emo.
i hate dis feelin.
i hate cuttin myself.but i gain pleasure in doin it.wth..

i gain temporary loss in memory of him.

im sorry.

i rili.stil love him no matter wad.
n i kno he wun come back..........nt evn if i die......lols....lols... hais.

2006-03-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

How can U do dis to me.
Ashley chong . i hope u c dis. i hate u.
hw can u b so happy in torturin me.
=(

u made promises. empty ones.
made me love u .. n nw u regretted. n nw u kno dis feelin aint love.

i dint like u in e 1st place.
u were e 1 who made me love u so much.
n dan u tortured me wif ur lies.
i hate u.
i hate u.
i hate u.

i wanted to forget bout u n move on wif my life.
i isolated myself.
i acted happy.
i acted s if i dun care anymore.
but ..
i rili do.

u made me cry evy single nite.
i hope u wun get any sleep too.

i rili hate u.
i hate u
i HATE U.

but i stil love u.
ITS ALL UR FAULT.

i hope i die. n u wil suffer guilt.

=(

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

n i cant delete my msn history wif u.
n i cant delete my smses wif u.

Y E HELL M I TINKIN OF U.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

n to tink ur enjoyin evy part of ur life.

i hate e fact ur' torturin me evy single nite.

i dun wan to cry anymore.

y cant e tears stop flowing.
y cant my mind stop hafin flashbacks of u.

Y DID I EVN TOK TO U IN E 1ST PLACE.
Y DID I BOTHER BOUT LENDIN U ANYTING. DAN I WUN MET U.
Y DID I EVN WAN TO B UR GF.
Y DID I NOT BREAK WIF U EARLIER.

o ya. my vcd is stil wif u.
i hope u look at it along wif e diary e pen n e drawing n e card. evy single nite wif guilt.
ARGHS.
i hope u look at it like hw i look at ur folded hearts.

i wish i can forget evyting bout u.

i cant move on. i rili rili rili.....love u.

sighs.

i m jus so stupid.
i pray tt u wun suffer guilt actually.
i pray tt u'll live happily.

y m i so stupid?
y cun i bring myself to curse u to death.

i cant carry on anymore.

2006-03-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

ok.. isolated myself. for like 2 days?
=)

n nw ... =D
happy happy happy..

so s i tot..
he rili lied. but actually..i was hopin he wld msg me to end it all.
u kno. a proper ending..
but but actually.. deep dwn in me stil wans to believe he dint. =(

ok..wait.. yup..dat was wad i tot BEFORE i isolated myself.
=)

n nw..
i m jus glad he left me..
it wil b better for it to end fast dan 2 end it painfully.n slowly.
if e feelings for me were gone.. dere's like no reason to ask him to stay.
=))

wanted to go out today.
my mum dun allow.=.=
she's on leave n force me to stay at hm wif her.
=(
ronin! clubbin! sighs.

wadeva..

i m gg isolate myself furthermore.to get tings rili rili rite in my mind. cuz i was tinkin bout dyin n he mite come n c me once more.=.=
ok...
=) once more.. tml.=) i shall nt c e world.=)

*i stil love him. yes. cun control rite? but dan.. it doesnt matter anymore. =)

2006-03-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

now i kno.. he is nth but a pack of lies..
=(
his promises are lies.
he himself's a cheat.
i dunno y.
i stil haf dis fuckin feelin tt i stil love him.

i dun mean to b vulgar.
but for today..
let me b.

fuck him.
he's a liar.
a lousy liar .
=(

i watched date movie today.
=D
funny..but til e behind part..
=((((
i teared.
n i kno. nic teared.
it's touchin.
it's sad.
i dunno wad happen..
it's suppose to b a comedy. n i fuckin tot of him.
it was like less dan 2 weeks we were in e cinemas .. holdin on together..
today... emptiness filled me.
=(

sighs.

n i cant believe i played pool.=.=
n i got reminded of him. i promised him a treat if he managed to make me love pool.=(
fuckin promises.

n to tink i teared dere..tinkin of him.

n dan .. i turn my head n saw ppl playin dota .
FUCK.
he loves playin dota.
n dere again..i tot of him playin.
n dan i teared again.
no 1 realise i guess.
i cant help it.
i jus ...=(

dan e music starts playin fuckin Jay.Ch** (jay choo or wadeva u tinks.=) dun sue me for it)

n dan i tot of him.. he loves jay ch**.. n he sang his song to me b4. a lil part... =((
n i was tinkin bout it.
i teared again.
FUCK.

jus a trip out to a nearby JE entertainment.
i teared hw many fuckin times.
ASS.
n so.. i decided. stop.
i shal start to luff.
n i tink i turned crazy aft tt.

dan went hm.
n nw.. i so fuck up.
i dunno y.

nicole isnt happy. tt guy ignored her again. ASSHOLE. u ignore somemre u wil get retribution.stop being a loser.it's nt easy to wait for sme1. n U MADE MY BESTIE SAD. LOSER!.

Lien wasnt happy. i dunno y.. he moodswin suddenly. =) cheer up guy.. relags lar. but thanks for e movie treat.LOLS.=)))

so . 2 of my gd frens actually was unhappy.

today's jus a fuck up day.

=((

*n i rili stil fuckin love him.*.

can he nt b an ass?=( hais.

2006-03-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

some1 tell me dis aint true..

actually nvm lar. true or nt..i stil hafta live my life ..=.=

hahas..

jus randomly whining.

i miss my frens..lols..

=(

e last warning sign.

=))

dis post is jus written anyhw..mite consider deleting aft i rite fin.lols.

2006-03-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

sighs..
i tink i stil miss him...f***.=(
no! happy life happy lifee!!!!!!!!

ok.

=) get on wif life ppl.stop askin me tings i dun wan to say.=)

actually.i was pondering over wad lien told me.. it cld b a lie..rili..dere ar lotsa loop holes..
er....HMMMM..=( so.....aiya wadeva la.

actually..
i haf stuffs to say.
=)
Support Lucify.. if nt..Defuse..
BUT.. support LUCIFY!!!.. superband.
=)
n.... cont supporting zhi yang( CSS) .. hehs. i dint kno he's cute before ytd.=) HEHS.=D
n..
lemme c..
ronin's memories rili nice.evn tho ppl mite tink it's a bit drag yea? but..dun deny e fact it's nice lar.=)

o..speakin bout ronin..
hu interested in gg Mosiac Music Fest @ esplanade on 16 march wif me?
=D
we can go clubbin at zouk aft tt..

ya.. jus s long s ur' above 12...=) c'mon..
dun b sucha wet blanket..
=))c'mon ..
let's go n rock n club e whole nite .
WAHAHAS.

let's c..
mon.. o..ya..mr razali's leavin..
so dere's actualli dis farewell party tml..
omg.. i almost forget..mus msg gwen ask her to go wif me.=D

wed..dere's actually dis hkmb performance at taka...
so.. jon ask me go... hmmm..i tink i mite go.. if i found COMPANY. =D

OK...

ppl.. dis wk wil b a bz week.. u kno ur' hafin sch hols.
so c'mon.. let's go hang arnd..
=D

i dun wan to b alone...at hm anymore.
=(

F*** i rili tink i miss him alot...
so much so tt..i m gg to ruin my own life..

O GOD.
=(

2006-03-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

2006-03-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

im currently tuning myself back to normal..
back to my own frequency..
wasnt myself for e past few days lar.
XD..

so i MITE not blog for another long period.. lols..

anyway..
shoppin is oways fun...n it heals all e hurt..all e wounds i haf ..=D

went shoppin wif aunt jus nw..
ok..jp again.. wanted to get some stuffs..
=D

n i spent EVY SINGLE CENT i haf ..
nw i m REALLY broke..
i tink im gg work again SOON.if i haf time tat is..=D

anw..saw althea at mac.
yup.althea..
s nice s b4..
=D she's my ex maths tutor..=D..
e 1 hu made me pass my maths..seriously.. if i had jus had suen s my maths teacher...i dunno hw badly i wld've done for maths.. n i tink i cun evn get to any poly shit lar.. at least nw i can haf e chance to appeal... =D im grateful to her..

=))))

i LOVE shopping.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~

i tink im back to hu im...=))) soon lar..
=))

e happy happy me..
+))

bt... i wil stil wait for him..
=) cuz..i dunno.. i tink i fall deeeepppply in love.....
ash~~~~~

wadeva.
=)))
im jus happy for wad i haf nw..
=D

yeaS~

2006-03-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

Close your eyes,
give me your hand, darlin'
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming
Is this burning
An eternal flame
(Ooooh)I believe it's meant to be, darlin'
(ooooh)I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me (aaaah)
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming
Is this burning (burning)
An eternal (eternal) flame
Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life, so lonely
And come and ease the pain
I don't wanna lose this feeling, ho-oh(Ooh)
Oh woah(Call my name)(Call my name, call my name, call my name)(Call my name)
Say my name (say my name)
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life so lonely
And come and ease the pain
I don't wanna lose this feeling
Ooh woah
(Ooooh) Close your eyes, give me your hand, darlin'(Ooooh)
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand(Aaah)
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning (burning)
An eternal (eternal) flame
(Ooooh) Close your eyes
Give me your hand (oh yeah yeah) darlin'
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you (do you understand) understand
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming (dreaming)
Or is this burning an eternal flame
(Ooooh)Close your eyes
Give me your hand (give me your hand)(Ooooh)
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you (give me your hand) understand
Do you feel the same (aaah)
Or am I only dreaming (dreaming)
Or is this burning an eternal flame

dis is a super nice old song..wanted atomic kitten ver.but.yup...
=))

i rili like tis song..

i wanted him to hear dis..
sighs.
=D

duhs...wad m i tinkin..
=)) i wil let him listen nxt time..

white v day white vday~~~lols

2006-03-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

听过西洋情人节，也听过七夕情人节。那麽你知道什麽是“白色情人节”吗？

　　其实，这是有关於日本的民间传说二月十四号原本是女孩子对男孩子诉诸情意的日子，由女孩子送情人礼物给男孩子但是渐渐发展到最後，已经不分彼此，现在的情人节由谁主动送礼物已经不重要了。

　　在日本如果一方在二月十四日当天收到异性送的情人礼表达爱意，而且对对方也有同样的好感或情意时，就会在三月十四日回送对方一份情人礼物，那表示今年，彼此已经心心相印了。所以他们就把三月十四日这一天，订为"白色情人节"。

　　如果你也收到一份期待的情人礼物，那何妨趁著"白色情人节"这一天让对方也感受到你的爱意呢？（三九健康网）

translation :
is actually bout white valentines.
when u received a present on feb 14...which is known s valentine's day..
n if u haf nice feelings bout e person hu gave u e present... u wil return him/her a present on e march 14..which is oso known as white valentine's day..=D
n frm tt day onwards...e 2 of u wil b together forever..
=))
it was actually a japan culture tt if a girl likes a guy..she wil gif him a present on valentine's day..n if e guy has feelings for e girl..he wil gif e girl a present in exchange for e 1 he receive on white valentine's day..=)) but nw.. either girl or guy who gave present 1st.. is e same..
XD

*as i knew it..i had nvr been able to get a relationship to pass on any freakin valentine's day.
hahas..
n i dunno wether me n him wil evn last til white valentine's day which is next week.....

i seems s tho i gt a curse on me.hahas.

whatever it is..
YUP!..

CELEBRATE WHITE'S VALENTINE'S DAY~
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the season of LOVE~

2006-03-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

i kept tinkin..=D e whole nite..
n i came out wif e conclusion tt i will wait for him...

u kno..actually.. i was strugglin..
shld i rili wait? cuz... actually... it wil b easy if he wants to contact me.. is jus tt wether he wans anot.. annie can gif a thousand ways tt he can contact me..n i jus realise.. e tagboard is e most easiest way.

but dan again...

he got his own reasons.

so i stopped struggling.=) i choose to believe he cares .

n so.. i shall wait for him.
=D

shucks.
today i was grounded..daddy dun let me go anywhr..
i tink he pms arhs. lols.

so i woke up at 8 am..watched a bit of doraemon n went back to sleep..
dan woke up at 3+ which is nw..cuz nicole wans me to go mac wif her..bt of cuz i cun..
=( so nw i m fully awake.. preparing to watch doraemon again..
XD

waiting is rili rili rili hard....but =) i realise.. evn tho i mite b rili rili rili sad... i stil wans to wait for him..=D cuz. i rili love him.=)))

ciaos ppl~

2006-03-08T14:17:00.000+08:00

=( i m e root of all his problems.
i m sorry.

2006-03-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

"When you are in love and it's raining and hailing , just remember that it started with the sun shining." Quote from Ryan's msn nick. a part of his nick lar.=)

vy meaningful yea?
evy relationship started wif e sun shining...=D

actually.. i was tinkin..
perhaps..we went into a relationship w/o tinkin it's consequences.
perhaps..i shld let him go......
he haf his studies to cope wif..
n perhaps... aft his studies..we can b together again.

2006-03-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

Fixing a broken heart

There was nothing to say
the day she left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
looking for someplace to ease the pain

Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found u there

you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart

I never could understand
What you're going to through
there must be a plan that lead me to you
because the hurt just disappears
in every moment that you are near

Just like an answered prayer
you made the loneliness easy to bear

fixing my broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling,
baby I'll let's forget the past
cuz here we are at last

you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart... fixing a broken heart

Nice nice song.nice nice song..XD Hui Hui's ( www.beneathmysoul-.blogspot.com ) blog de bg music.~

2006-03-06T18:33:00.000+08:00

HAHAS....
HAHAS
HAHAs
HAHAHs
HAHAHAHAS
HAs
HAs
HAs
HAs
HAs
HAs
HA
i m mad. fuck. i hate dis feeling.
shit.
SHit

hahahahahahas

hahahs.

hahas.

hahas

ahhas

hahas

hahas

hahas

i hate dis kinddaaa shitty feeling.

spent 16.20 on cab fare wif huifen for nth.hahas.. went dere to do ONLINE dae . =.=

sucks rite?

ciaos.

2006-03-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

hais...=(
i m feelin rili lousy..is like i haf some1 to lean on..bt tt person isnt dere whn i rili rili need him e most... u kno... is like i wan to tell him im rili rili rili dwn..bt i was scared he's bz wif his frens..or he's hafin fun n i dun wan to spoil his mood..so i tolerate evyting..bt... hais..
forget it..
dis is me being silly again .sighs.

im rili rili feelin vy inferior oso.. u kno..gettin a guy hu is like soooooo much smarter dan u ... n u..oways being e stupid n silly 1..
n i cun help it whn im feelin tt he mite get snatched away by other ppl..sighs..
=(

im beginnin to fall apart..

if only he knew.. i dun evr want him away frm me.. i dun wan to lose him .. n i haf rili fallen deep for him.. if only he n i haf time for each other... sighs.

=((((

im rili fallin apart.. i need his presence ..i rili rili rili need it..
=(((

N I DUN WAN TO LOSE HIM.

sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
siighs.

ok.. dis is me being silly once again.. if he evr sees dis... =( sorry ash.=( sorry.

hais..
tml...wil b a hard day for me..
ok..

done enuff whining..=)

ciaos.

2006-03-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

evr since fri e 13. i nvr blog.
lols.
ok.. whatever it is i shall blog nw.
=)))

anyways..i gt vy bad results for my o's..
n ending up.. i haf to go appeal for poly on mon.
i lead a sad life.
ok.so.i m gg wif fen xh n ming hui lar.

i quit my job .. mar is too stressful for me to cont workin..
mus rest n oso.. study .
er..i mean prepare to study if i can tt is.
=)

bt i rili miss e kids.. casey spencer..wyzley..yun qi..louis.. wei xuan.xiang ping.. LOTS N LOTS OF DEm..OMG!!!!

i rili miss dem.

rili.

hais.....=( gave dem goodybag(py1a n py1c) whn i left..of cuz..hahas.went jp wif nicc n huifen e day b4 to get e stuffs for dem.. hahas..=)) we evn packed u kno e taxi stand dere at e coffeebean dere..OMG..lols..we ar so so so comical..=) bt is worth for e kids rite?i wil miss workin wif nicc n fen..hais.. we wil b separated soon..hais..hais..hais.

260206.
a special date...
rite ash.?=)

i m in love wif dis guy hu wil b wif me forever.
XD.
he's a nice guy.
dun try to bully him..cuz i wil pluck off ur hairs.
=D

n oso.

nicole's hadnt been happy nwadays.
hais.
i hope she wil jus cheer up for a lil kays..
if tt guy aint worth ur waitin..
dan dun wait..evn tho i kno it's hard ..
bt .. u haf a deadline.. let's wait n c wad happens n til dan ..if u wan to gif up...
hais.
wadeva it is.i wil b here wif u kays.
=) dun worry.

2006-01-15T15:58:00.000+08:00

i m gonna blog.

days in kindergarden was ok..
=)

bt i tink i spent 2 much money on clothes..

..
=)

friday e 13 was OMG...shucks.

actually..
i kno smthn wil happen.
i oways believe in it.
e black friday ya kno.

ok..
so i was careful bout evyting ..
bt tings oways come so sudden.

ting yao vomit on me.

URGHS!.

luckily nt on my shirt.
jus my jeans.
YES MY JEANS.
awww.
dan ms chew went home n take hers fer me.
=) hw nice hors.

pauline say tml i mus oso take e morn session myself.
bt..
tml teach b..
hw e hell wld i kno hw 2..
down n around?
B down arnd arnd?
errrrr..

take tings s it comes.
ok.
=)

err..
fri e 13.
hmm.
nicole gt blood stained cuz of a student hu cut her own finger...
is yucky ..
i m nt dere at e crime scene..so..
ya..

so if u wan 2 kno wad happen y she gt blood stained cuz of e student.
read her blog.

www.ostensible--chronicles.blogspot.com
turn to the links n click nicole.
=))

2006-01-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

happy working...
kindergarden.pap.nanyang.blk 825.jurong west.
XD

relief teacher.
LOLS..
pay. nahh..u dun hafta kno.

XD

bt...

it's so damn fun...
tho tiring.

i m like so sick..hafing flu like hell..
bt
yes.ilove those lil lil kids..

n yes.. tml is PE!!!!!!! pLYAGROUND!

kno wad..i jus so love casey.shanelle.pernette.lovewell.lionel.audrey.wesley.qian yu.angeline n angelica(dey ar TWINS!)... blah blah..

so cuteeeee o my. my my my ...those ar jus some few fave students..

so 2day.. i conducted e aftnn class.. A B C D E ...blah..
n e morn music clas..
o my.. sorethroat..lols..

dan 2day while dey ar like hafin chi class i went 2 nicole n fen clas..
=)) jerome!!!! cutie..n soooo smart..
bt tt ying qi.(tiffany) omg..

hahas..bt tt is their clas..

went 2 k2 clas..
1 boy is so supersmart.
he help me settle e grp .
LOLS!..
dan saw shanelle bro..so alike..

lols..

c..

i m stil hafin fun

bt rili.
tired.

=))

tml teacher gg 2 teach u 1 2 3..=)))

okies..

i m rili tired.n sick.=)) cun wait fer e weekend 2 come..

2005-12-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.4
Mind:	6.5
Body:	7
Spirit:	8.3
Friends/Family:	5.3
Love:	2.1
Finance:	3.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

oh izit.. my life is like tt..

love is 2.1??

ehh... pathetic.

finance 3.9?

can cut my spirit?? lols.. take e rate my life quiz anyway.. quite true lar. =))

quitted my job. nt suitable fer mie ..or actually..i haf no interest in it..cuz..no money fer effort..no nth..dan oso bcuz..ya la..i m a slacker smetyms.. so i can onli do thos kindda u kno..admin kinda work.

anyway..gg job hunting agaiinn..=)) askin dearrr nicole.XD huifen n nou xian wif mie lar..=)) of cuz..hhas.. hahs.. i realise..it's gg 2 b 2 yrs since i blog.. ya ..GOING to. i blog in march 2004 i tink. bt archives is frm april start lar.=))

crapping i kno. yes. tml NARNIA's out.omg.i waited fer e movie fer like hw many yrs? =))) yepp. anyway.. reaching for the stars is a nice shw. rili. e shw gt she de leh..ya..tt shw..=)) i watch finish ler..=)) nt bad nt bad. tt guy vy cute.. e guy wif hebe de*nt e police de*.. xiao ya wei..=)))

okies lar.

i cut my hair btw. =((((((

wann to slp oredi.=)

ciaox.

2005-12-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

=))
grad nite was fun.
erms..quite fun..
went chinablack..=)) support althea's erm..party or smthn.
=.=

siians.

found job.bt...=.=
lols..

let's c....
sell ice cream 6 hrs 5 bucks. =.= hu wan do! omg.
lols..
giordano.. 1 hr 6.50.. mon go wif huifen c..(huifen do ice cream de fer wad?! dis is better man ..lols)~
=))
dan found another..
events promoter.=)
nice rite?can hang out in town fer start work on tue.=) 2.30 to 8.30 ZZzzZZzzZZz!
dan tuition coordinator!. so hu wan tuition.come find mie. ur son or bro. sis. whoeva..
can come find mie.
=)) n oso ... wan learn violin . piano.flute.art.cookin..+++++
come come come.
=))))))
thanks 2 nicole.hahas.

siiiann!.
work.work.work.

anyway..2day at orchard.

=))) LOLS.. a 6 yr old cutiee kid was playinn e drums.

awesome man.

singapore youngest busker!!! he started learning e drums at 2.. n he's 6 nw.

OMG!..he's rili cute lar...!!!XD

omg..
syafiq jus called.
c lar.
nv call earlierr.!

hahas.
mr said's getting married tml.
omg.
wad 2 wear??
wad 2 bring dere?
OMG!

okkays.
=))

tc peeps..
XD
i shall post some fotos of grad nite soon.=D

2005-11-23T11:54:00.000+08:00

siighs.
o's finally over.

bt tt marks an end 2 my secondary journey.

u c. i m used 2 parting .

a few yrs latr... u mite c 1 of ur sec pals..n nt recognise dem.
hw sad.
tt's life.

bt fer my bestest frns. u kno.. nicole.fen.wendy.xue hui.
n my lil juniors best frns.. annieXD.jun liang.

i wil nv ferget u guys yeaa..

thank you fer being a part of mie ....
=D

evy1 leaves footprints bhind ur life.

thanks 2 thos who's been my classmate.=D
if nt fer u guys. i gues sch wld b borin yea..

thanks 2 thos teachers who's been a help.

thanks... 2 rili.
evy1.
XD
love ya.

ya.
tml's grad nite..
siighs.

lookin forward bt nt rili lookin forward.
siighs.

bt evyting wil b an end.

2005-11-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

Take The Quiz Yourself!

ommgg...=D

bt i like hitsugaya..

nvm..

anyways.

today is a lil sub official end of o's
..
tho nxt tue gt mcq sci.

bt can play ler.

YES AH!

2005-11-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

omg...

wad an unlucky week i had..
=(((

&*@$(*$)*#(#

maths was so freakin easy..tt i m stil hafin doubts wether i took e correct paper man.
bt since it's so damn freakin easy..alot ppl will score damn well..
thus.. grades wil b moderate?!

omg.

chem was okies.=)

phy was fuck.
OMG!!
I SCREWED MY PHY PAPER.

wadeva.i did e paper in 1/2 an hr..
omg.

okies..
social studies..
damn.
wadeva e teacher say wil come out .did nt.
wadeva e teacher ask us nt 2 study.. or rather do nt encourage us 2 study..all came out.
venice.wad e fuck??!! we dint evn learn plz?
ok nvm
at least i did learn sri lanka on my own. (cuz i tot i mite came out.it did. my instinct is oways gd) .
so.okiex.
bt i studied so damn hard fer e "teacher recommended topic" MERGER N SEPARATION ."
oh damn.=(

ok eng.
i screwed my speech format.
i realise.
no gd mornin.
no thank you.
hw bloody rude?
n i evn put title.
=( omg. i stupid plz.

nw i m awaiting fer poa !! geog n sc paper 1.
i lost hope fer poa.=(
geog..=) i m studyin right damn hard now.=)
sc paper 1.
i m countin on it 2 make mie pass my sci papers.
muz do well fer e phy mcq most imptly.=)))

ok..

dis was o's

nw..

i m rili in a damn foul luck nwadays.

i gt stalked home.omg. n tt guy is freakin.erm.nvm. lucky niic was wif mie.=))

ok

aft gg thru dis .. i on my comp

to find out my comp sudenly spoil.
all files ar gone

fuck! uhHH!!!

dan i gt sme1 callin my phone in e middle of e nite today..like 2 am? OH PLZ!!! spare a tot fer mie..=(
tt person spoke in e weirdest lang. n i said wrong no. e person ignored.=.=
dan i hang up.
e person call n call.
=.=

oh well.

wad a luck man!..

i reformat my comp anyway.

n it's named aft him
omg!!!.

okays..
i shal go..
today is sunday.
tml is mon.
crapps.
bt ya..mon is a new wk...
=))

a new wk represents a new beginiin
=) mayb bad luck will b gone.
=D

2005-10-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

yeaaaa
RONIN's COMIN OUR SCH tml.
together wif power 98.
=)

awwwwwwww.
i cun waitt.
=)

hais.

evy1's nt gg..
sad.

niic.
wan 2 c mvp.

lien.
he no 1 acc him go.

wait.

dere's zexing.
=)

he's gg wif mie
.
c.
he's nice.

*i m sayin dis. bcuz he's acc mie. + i wan his naruto movie.=P*

ok.

so.

i spend e whole day ..

waitin fer tml.

wait.

i was msgin levan juz nw
XD

YES.
LEVAN LUPE WEE.
awwwww..

i tink i better go die nw.
i m 2 excited.

2005-10-18T13:53:00.001+08:00

Awwwww.
i cun believe i m actually stayin at hm.
i m bored.

i dint go mac 2day .sheesh.

anyway. ytd was a hard dayy.
:

Mum: oii. y u evyday go mac. nv study. ur o's comin. i tell u. ur results so bad oredi . stil dun wan study. go tink bout it urself.
Me: (politely) i m studyin.
Mum: home cnt study izit . go mac u study i believe u arh.
Me: okiex mum. listen. i go mac study gt ppl teach mie.
i at hm study when i gt enquiries i cnt clarify. plus. dis is wad my principal told mie.
Mum: i say 1 ting . u say 10 tings.
go study.

(anyway.i dint study.i was usin e comp =D.)
20 mins latr.

my dad called.
my mum suddenly shout.
ok. i realise. quarrelin.
awwww.
i m scared. i mean. aiya. i dunno.

anyway .cuz i haven taken my dinner.

Mum: eat ur dinner nw.
Me:(i was tokin on da fone wif nic.cuz.at tt time i really was scared larr.i had 2 use da fone.i dun wan it 2 ring.=D) wait lar.
Mum: (scream at e top of her voice) eat nw.
Me: okok. eat nw eat nw.(reluctantly)

wtf?
does she hafta like thrw her temper at mie?

10 mins latr
Mum: (suddenly) u wan go mac tml dan go lar. go fer all i care.
Me: uh huh. ok .
Mum: (unreasonably) u go. c wad i will do 2 u.
Me: ok. i shall c if i wan 2 go.
Mum: (shout stuffs tt i dun rili catch.lolx.)

weird mum rite? bt nic says let her shout.she shout finish she will feel better.
ok.so i let her shout.XD

silence.

aft eatin .
i went 2 slp.

n dreamt a dunno wadeva dream.
it's terrible.
absolutely.
=(

ask nic.
i told her.
bt if she cant rmbr.
dan i dunno.
cuz i dun wan 2 sayy.
it's a terrible hilarious nitemare.
bt fer nic. i tink it mite b sweet.
cuuz i did dreamt of her n ahems.

yepp.

tt's all.

i m bored.

2005-10-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

i dun understand e world no more.

i dun understand a single human being on earth. incl. myself.

y do we make frns? 2 find out tt ur' no longer want a fren like ur fren?
y do we study? 2 find out tt we cun get gd grades? n 2 cry over it ?
y do we scold ppl? 2 find out . e only person u hurt is nt e person u scold. bt urself.
y do we haf parents n siblings ? 2 find out latr tt dey are e least ppl u wan 2 live wif yet e ppl u love most? irony isnt it?
y do we evn do tings w/o tinkin??

y??

awwww.
i hate life.
damn sad.

i hate hafin 2 quarel over tiny tings.
hate 2 hear (or see) any1 scoldin e fuck outta mie.
hate 2 tink.

u kno y i love 2 slp?
no troubles.
no hassle.

e only bad ting is tt.
when u wake up.
evy peacefulness u experience is gone.
n hw u detest wakin up 2 c e worldly troubles
n u wish hw nice it wld b 2 die in ur dreams..

yes..

i m nt in any mood 2 fuckin blog .
bt
...

i feel like bloggin?

irony yeaa?

ok.

tc.bye.

awwww.

2005-10-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

Mr Kenneth Loke Guo Jun.
pardon mie if i spell ur chi name wrongly.

so..
u get 1 insult letter stil nt enuff?..uh huh.. mess wif nicole.yawns.u nt afraid of dyin arh.
freak.

uh huh.
so due 2 nic's request. n bcuz she's my bestie.
i shall state my stand.
u sucks.

uh huh
stop critisizin.
u aint any better .
IF ur' any better dan our dear nicole here.
let's c.
1. u wun get an insult letter.
2. u wun b such a nuisance in class .
3. and get branded useless.

so wad if ur's studies gr8?
eq 0.

n let's c.

i tink ur compatiable wif tt trollop.
=D

u can go n take her.
i tink she wil pay u fer it.
yes.

ok.
so .
perhaps u shld appologize 2 nicole.
or i tink u wil get hell outta trouble.

goodbye.

yes.
I WAN PANASONIC P900iV "Cloud Black" I WAN
I FRIGGIN WAN IT!!!!..
=(
bye.

2005-10-06T17:18:00.005+08:00

chnged my blogskin
=D

ok

2day's post is 2 say bout sme ppl.
we'll name her *

yes.

i tink she consumes aphrodisiac.
tt's y she can go on bein a geisha w/o feelin tired.
she can hook up all e guys she c .
fat thin short tall. fugly.

kno wad?
she's aint a frn.
ok sure.. mayb sometimes she is.
she does comfort ppl.
ya.she does.
she does try 2 make ppl luff when ppl's upset.
bt wads e use?
it's a fake damn mask she puts on.
i tink she juz wants attention
uh huh.
attention seekin whore.

bitch.
she loves ill speakin of her frns.
ya.
in frnt of hueva..
any1 will do..
she juz love ill speakin of others. behind their backs.

shit.

mayb nxt time i shall call her a harlot.
geisha are professionals.2 gd fer her.
or mayb a trollop..uh huh
harlot is 2 high class fer her.
yes.
trollop will do.

*i love electronic dict.*

ok..
so u c..
wad a bitch she is.

i admit aint gd.
bt ya.

if u rili rili rili kno her.
i tink u wil scold her a slutty bitch. wait. slutty trollop.

yes.

she loves bitchin n she loves men.

she puts on tt mask of hers.
pukes............................................
n she loves talkin non stop.
n uh huh. she doesnt kno..
no 1's interested.
=(

sad 2 kno dis kindda ppl.
bt yes.=(

ps. i gt 21 =) fer l1r4

hahs.
chi studies' my onli choice.
=D

ok

fine.
i shall end here.

2005-09-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

I m Troubled.
hu can help mie?

i m troubled.
rili troubled.

kill my useless body n send my liveless soul away.

i love bleach.
i love tsubasa.
i love naruto.
dey make mie ferget all my problems
n i felt s if i live in e other world.

i m troubled.
i m cured temporary oways.
bt . deep dwn .
i m troubled over a lot of tings.

if i goes on like dis..
i cun imagine wad i wil turn 2.
no 1 comes here anymore.
if u happen 2 c dis.
help mie.
help mie.
help mie.

n i m 16 nw.
i shld handle my problems on my own.
if ur' nt free 2 help mie.
dan goodbye.

n ya.
i love my frns.
thx fer celebrating my bdae wif mie.
kisses n huggs.

2005-08-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

ooi.jun.liang.sec 2d.Junior councillor. bored. =)) tt's e main purpose of postin dis pic.hahas.

2005-08-04T18:48:00.001+08:00

hahahahahas....

2005-08-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

he look slpy. hahs. si xuan.. weird oso lars.

2005-08-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

b4 invest starts.. hahas. =)

2005-08-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

wahahas.
left my blog rust on its own fer so long.
hahas.

lets c wad i shld update?

hmm..
well..
i dunno actually..
nth gd nth bad.
norml routine evyday.......
=(

42 days.
to prelims.
=((
i haven revise enuff.
hais
tym freeeez!!

harry potter n e half blood prince's quite nice.
bt ya.
it's sad lar.

aiya.
i rili dunno wad 2 sayy..lerr

romance #1 in F.
niice niice niiceeeeee

hehs...

Hoh wei jian rox.
m1 m1 m1

=)))

i failed geog.=(
sad lar.
failed by a bit.
i pass chi oni by a bit.
sad oso lar.
hahas.

well.
2day chi lesson's e best in ages.
we watched e liang shan bo n zhu ying tai cartoon ver.
=))) NICE.
hehs.
jealous of us peeps.

chi o's mite b outt hmm.. e wk aft nxt.
=( i m nervous

well..
okiex.
i tink i shal end here.
shall post fotos.

2005-07-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

freak.
i juz realise life's tough.
=(
our society r bloody corrupted.in a way tt we dunno.
fuck.
i watched finish e shw.. erm.. nobody's child.
well.
no comment.
tt shw made mie cry .
urghs.

=(

oh ya.
let's congrats hoh wei jian.
HE WONNNN e revival round.
ok.
it's a sorta late to say dis.
bt HE WONNNNNNN

bt it's sad leon haf 2 leave lar.
=)
bt DERRICK HOH WEI JIAN WONNN

=)

ok.. let's say bout tis week..
hmm
i m bloody bored e whole week.
=(
n i m quite depressed 2day.
e shw partly.
n partly bcuz tml wil b a start of an endless week.
=(
shucks.
did i left any hw out.
n ya. tml gt geog remedial.
yikes.

tml i tink we wil get our poa test back.
FUCK.
i screw dis 1 up .

n ya.
b4 i ferget.
niic dis part is fer u.
2day.. all those guys hu oogle at u..
bloody hell shld die.hahas.
benjy shld b sad cuz he ignored u
n u shld b happy. a dozen other guys wld b glad 2 take over his place.
at least fer 2day. oh..bt those guys r freakin apallin.
i kno u wun evn take a 2nd glance .
those tt gt gurlfrns bside dem n stil stare at niic.
u shld juz go 2 hell.
wad e hell is ur gf fer.
.....
i dun c u starin at ur gfs?
do i?
..freakin go 2 hell if u dun treat ur gfs well.

happy part is..hahas.i m sure if he's dere. he wun oogle at niic. he's 2 nice 2 do tt.
=)

ok.
done.

well.
i love je enter arcade de turntable.
=D
niic rite?

yawns.
i m tired.
i m sure i wil b havin monday blues tml...
siighs.

ni za

**//wo henn xiiangg nii//**

=hen xiang ni- derrick hoh. or .. z chen.

**//iii wann a revvolluuttiionnn babbyyy.//**
=revolution. - ronin.

i m maddd...
I HATE MONDAYS!

2005-07-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

=)
i m sad
i m happy
i m sad
i m happy
i m sad
i m happy

i love u.
i love him.
i hate u.
i hate him.

i m nth.
i m smthn.
i m nth.
i m smthn.

i like dis.
i like tt.
i like nth.

go away.
cmere.
go away
cmere.
go away.

c dis.
sw tt.
c dis.
sw tt.
c nth.

*i m currently mad*
will tink of better tings 2 rite when i regain normality.

2005-07-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

n tada. so sad i dint take pic wif my blazer.bt yeaa. dis is miee.wif tt nerdy jl specs.=) n once again i emphasize. dis' a glimpse of mie.=) hAHA

2005-07-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

ytd. on e way 2 reptile park. niic n fen

2005-07-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

niic drew dis.

2005-07-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

huifen miee n niic durin cme period. gosh. i look so weird.

2005-07-08T23:45:00.001+08:00

huifen. n beside her is khaifang. her lao gong lors.=) hahas

2005-07-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

nic lyin on huifen. hahas.

2005-07-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

dis' niic. lolx.

2005-07-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

n dis' niic wif my blazer n my tie pin.=)

2005-07-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

dis is chong ying wif my blazer. ppl oways look smarter in blazer.*weird*

2005-07-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey.
i shall update.
let's c.
tue went back 2 sch.
well . was my chi oral.
i was like tokin craps man.
i screw it all up.
siighs.
=(
wad cld i say when e qns is juz discuss modern technology.
n e newspaper is . let's talk bout students hafin part tym jobs.
gosh.
rili.seriously. i tink i screw evyting up.
=(

aft oral.
went dwn . supposingly 2 do maths.
bt wasnt in e least mood 2 do.
i was gg 2 cry soon lorr.
n dan . dere was dis freakin council investiture rehearsal tt i muz ..compulsory go.
fuck tt person hu took my blazer.
i purposely chnged e hanger 2 indicate tt's mine.oh well.
nvm.

wed
investiture day.
4 yrs in a row.
i c no diff.
n ya. dis yr. still no other sch rep.
=(
sch nv invite dem..
n my shoes got lost in e council rm.
was so worried.
n wendy fergt 2 bring.
bt.she asked her bf 2 bring it fer mie.
gosh.
so nice rite her bf.
=) i owe dem lots man.!
okiex.
bt tt shoe was so damn ugly.
i missed mine throughout e whole invest.
=(
lower sec assem was ok.
wads more cld u xpect.
those lil tings all look so toot. so blur.so gong.
hahas.=) dey dun realise we made a lot of mistakes.
upp.sec assem.
gt better.
i wore jun liang specs. on upp sec asm.
specs keep droppin. his specs is so damn big.
*bt nice* hahas.
i tink it's nice.
hahas.
n duhx. back 2 e specs keep droppin.
it dropped 2 much. n i cldnt bow.
ok. tt was so sad.
n ya.
huifen dint go sch .=( purposey dun wan c mie.
hahas.

thurs
once again.
i muz rili thanks aaron fer his geog book.
=)
wahahas. or i wld nt kno wad 2 do .
n ya. i rili owe him twice.
aft sch supposingly chem remedial.
bt e 4 of us skipped it s usual.
xh went hm
fen mi n niic went reptile park
it's damn fun lors.
=)
xcept fer tt .. iguana n snake part.
dere's pics.
haven gotten dem
shall post it later.
=)

Fri:
2day... mrs chuah wan us 2 rite y we did nt go fer her remedial class.
n i told althea 2 help all 4 of us.
oh gosh.
we owe althea once.
n she's agreed soooo willinly.
ya kno.
she's e coolest tuition teacher i evr c.=)
i rili muz haf full of compliments fer her.
=)
n aft sch.
did cme proj wif fen.
=)
it's bout
nkf cancer fund
n i tink we did rili nice.
=)
dan toked 2 niic on fone.
she was at her lao gong hse.
=)
guess hu her lao gong is.
nooo.no prize fer tt.

yea. gues my lao gong. perhaps u will get a nice prize frm mie.
=) LOLX!

ya.
i tink e updates r juz like tt.
cyA!

2005-07-04T16:39:00.000+08:00

tada. a clear face.. mie!!! hehs.

2005-07-04T16:38:00.000+08:00

miee slpin in council room. y ppl take my foto slpin..

2005-07-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

dis foto rili vy nice lor.. no we arnt ghost. we r perfect humans hu saw ghosts.

2005-07-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

miee n niic. hw cum niic dun look like niic. u kno. she's my bestie.! rmbr her face.

2005-07-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

miee niic n marry..in e cabb.. it shld b dark..cuz it's like gg 2 b 12 am? bt i dunno y we look so brite.

2005-07-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

niic n marry .. in e cab aft chma.. *yawns*

2005-07-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

miee n hanns. hahas.=) aft chma.

2005-07-04T16:27:00.001+08:00

niic n hans. =) hehs.